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FeelingToday, as I decided to sit with my emotional discomfort, I realized that it all has to do with the aspects of me that still believe in separation. All sorts of roles and memories of feeling rejected and abandoned flashed by my mind’s eye and it felt like a stab in the heart. But instead of running with the “poor me” story, I got to observe it for a moment and see how the one feeling stabbed was the one repeatedly saying “I am separate, I need to be cared for, to be special, to prove myself to receive love”… which is a perception I have adopted at some point during my childhood. As much as the ego would like to continue its quest to find relief through external validation, do *I* need to experience life through this effortful perception? Is it who I am?

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As much as I have resonated with the reality of oneness for quite some time and felt it at various points, when it came to “me” being a part of this oneness, I was still unsure. I still didn’t fully feel “one” but was so used to this subconscious feeling of separation that I didn’t question my perception further. But if I know that the world is experiencing a shift from a belief in separation to a state of oneness, why wouldn’t I be included in the process?

The conscious and subconscious beliefs in our separation is what many souls have signed up to integrate this year. We have been waiting for this transformation to take place so we can fully embody our true essence and create a new world. In my life, these beliefs have manifested themselves through emotions of feeling alone, left out, judged and uncared for, which have been graciously brought to my awareness by external roles and events acting as a “mirror” for me to gain awareness of them.

We all have our own perceptions of separation with different stories attached to them. Some may feel like they need to judge and separate themselves from the “powers that be”, while others feel a great fear of failure, loss or death. Regardless of when or how we may feel separate, we are all in the process of releasing these emotional charges and old perceptions (instead of avoiding the feeling and compensating for them.)

If you too are uncovering old yet still powerful emotional charges within, it sure can feel intense when we are used to work around them and unconsciously identify with their story. But we can now skip the cycle of talking our way out of them and going right to their source by first feeling them fully.

A GLIMPSE OF ONENESS

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Tree ConnectionI wish to share the experience I had today when allowing myself to feel my emotions to their maximum potential. It started off as feeling rejected and unloved by the current “messenger” in my life playing the perfect role to trigger this old emotion. It quickly became an accumulated feeling of all past emotional reactions to scenarios of rejection I have experienced and never integrated. Yet in the end, it was simply a profound cry of separation. It was not so much about the scenarios and roles around me, but my own feeling of being separate from the source of life. From my own source. It was a profound yearning to be “a part of something, a part of love” paired with the belief that I wasn’t. I allowed myself to feel it fully. When the emotion subsided and all that was left was a quiet mind, I opened my eyes and stared at the tree outside my window. Then a thought came: “both me and that tree are a part of this experience right now”. I began noticing more things around me and felt like I was a part of them. They were neutral, whole, simply being what they are… just like me in that moment. How could I not be a part of this? I obviously am! I then felt the life within me, and felt that this life also extends to that tree, that object, that person walking past the street… the whole space around me. The life within is the same that is seemingly without. I am a part of everything.

“Even a stone, and more easily a flower or a bird, could show you the way back to God, to the Source, to yourself. When you look at it or hold it & let it be without imposing a word of mental label on it, a sense of awe, of wonder, arises within you. Its essence silently communicates itself to you and reflects your own essence back to you.”

– Eckhart Tolle

It may sound strange, but this felt so simple yet so true. When we move through and beyond our stories and emotional reactions and accept silence once again, we begin to notice the obvious. We are a part of everything/everyone that is – and in that state, it doesn’t matter what our own viewpoint of this “isness” looks like. I didn’t experience the full blown out-of-body experience of oneness, but I feel that this is not the point anyways. We are meant to bring the experience and knowing of oneness IN THIS BODY AND MIND. It is only mental noise and subconscious or conscious mind identification that is creating this veil of separation between us and what is. It is our emotional charges (often from the past) and beliefs that keep us from maintaining this natural state of being.

Separation is a dream, a figment of imagination we are now meant to PLAY with in the knowing of who we are, not forever remain identified with it. We must first release the idea that this is a serious life or death situation. How? By letting ourselves “die” a little! Not in a literal way, but by letting go of our identification with all that is impermanent – all that “dies” – such as our identities, emotions and body. It can feel like a death when we first feel ourselves without an identity or attachment to anything external, but it is simply the end of living in time: of making a present identity through an accumulated past and projected future.

“We can only let go of what we allow ourselves to feel”

Uninterrupted FEELING of this moment really is the “short-cut.” We can feel it all: the heartbreak, the pain, the fear, the shame, the guilt, the sadness, the lack, the disappointment, and even the rush of getting exactly what we want. We’ll then see that feeling loss won’t kill us, and feeling gain won’t “fix” us either… simply because we are eternal and complete beings anyways. We may even turn around and say “that was an intense… but pretty cool ride! Emotions are awesome!”

Anyways, I hope this helped lighten up whoever is going through old emotions and experiencing intense scenarios in their lives, or even those feeling a general lack of peace. Remember, what we are experiencing is a mirror, for what we need to look at WITHIN ourselves. The only source we need to find love and peace is the source that is already inside of us all. So “finding” really isn’t the appropriate word!

Enjoy your awakening process, we are really uncovering who we thought we could never be: our true, friggin brilliant and expansive selves. No more strings attached 😉

HERE are some clearing calls that you may find helpful in your journey.

Enjoy!

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The Highest-Ranking Vatican Official Ever Convicted Of Child Sexual Abuse

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  • The Facts:

    High ranking Vatican official Cardinal George Pell has been convicted on 5 counts of child sexual abuse.

  • Reflect On:

    Why are we made to idolize and look up to such institutions like the Vatican, the Pope, celebrities, presidents and politicians? Why are they always portrayed one way, but actively engaging in clandestine unethical behaviour? Why are they leaders?

How long have activists been creating awareness around ritualistic child abuse within the Vatican and its Catholic Churches spread throughout the world? How many times have officials from this domain been accused? How many times have they been convicted? How many more high ranking people from within the Vatican have to come forward for this type of activity to stop? It’s not just the Vatican, but this issue bleeds down from the top.

For example, here’s the story about a recent case that re-opened in Florida concerning billionaire Jeffrey Epstein and his friend Prince Andrew of the Royal Family. Hillary Clinton has been associated with crimes against children, and has been called out also for her (and Bill’s) connection to Epstein, in order to “engage in sex with minors.” You can read more about that here.

Cardinal George Pell

When it comes to the Vatican, the most recent example is Cardinal George Pell. Pell was just convicted on five counts of child sexual abuse. He has now become the most senior official ever to be found guilty, serving as an advisor to Pope Benedict, as well as Pope Francis. He’s one of the Vatican’s most powerful officials.

After Pell was found guilty, the judge ordered all Australian media outlets to desist from reporting the news about it. This is another classic example of media censorship, as they wanted to stem awareness of the fact that Pell was actually found guilty.

Apparently, Australian courts do impose these types of orders to ‘hide’ defendants from negative publicity that could prejudice future jurors in other trials. This may be true, but it seems odd given the fact that there was widespread media coverage leading up to the trial, so why not a peep about the results?

Despite the court’s efforts, the power of the internet is just too strong and this story has spread all over the globe. The internet is one reason why things are changing so rapidly, and more people are becoming aware of things they weren’t privy to in the past.

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Mainstream Media Compliance

News Media outside of Australia also complied with the gag order, supposedly out of concern that their Australian companies could be subjected to contempt of court penalties. This should come as no surprise: global mainstream media is owned by the same small group of people who seem to be in a panic over the popularity of independent/alternative media.

The New York times is a perfect example. They made no mention of Pell’s conviction, and they were an outlet that gave a large amount of coverage regarding the allegations against him. Perhaps mainstream media outlets only wanted to share the results if he was found “not-guilty”? The Times’ most recent story on the matter, as reported by the Washington Post, dated Wednesday, said that the Vatican had removed Pell and another cardinal from a council of advisors selected by Pope Francis and that Pell had been “implicated” in a sexual-abuse case. But it didn’t report the outcome of that case.

Just The Tip Of The Iceberg

When it comes to these kinds of crimes, what Pell has been found guilty of is most likely just the tip of the iceberg. We are talking about a man who has been a part of the close conglomerate of elites that represent the Vatican publicly. It’s not so far-fetched to assume that all of the highest ranking officials, including the Pope, participate in this type of activity.  If this is the case, how is it ever going to stop when those who are tasked with handling the problem are involved themselves? This is exactly how this type of thing works.

In fact, in 2015, a lawyer by the name of Ulrich Weber uncovered that for the thirty year reign of a boys choir run by Benedicts XVI’s elder brother, approximately 600 boys with a “high degree of plausibility” were victims of sexual and physical abuse, or both. The report identified 500 cases of physical abuse, and 67 cases of sexual abused committed by a total of 49 people in a position of power within the church. (source)

It was only a few months ago when Carlo Maria Vigano, former Apostolic Nuncio to the United States and Secretary-General of the Governor of Vatican City, implicated multiple church officials, including Pope Francis, in sexual abuse. You can read more about that here.

So where is law enforcement in all this? The fact is that law enforcement agencies do as they are told, and do not hold the real power in the world. Here is a recent article I wrote about a retired police detective with over 25 years of service in the investigation of child abuse, as he explains who is involved in this ring, and how it continues to operate while all serious investigations get shut down.

Why Is This Happening?

Those who engage in such activity have often had the same done to them. In many cases, it’s something the abusers themselves were born into, which is why this group atop the pyramid is so tight-knit, like a family. To many of them, their actions are not immoral or wrong. For them, as children, it became normal. Those who do question their actions must be fearful of coming forward, due to a lack of understanding of the problem, how deep it is, and the tremendous amount of persecution and judgement they will face.

There is also the matter of Satanism being practiced within the Vatican, an institution which is devoted to “God” in appearance only. Satanism and ritual abuse that utilizes children go hand in hand. That which is exposed in public is rarely the worst of it; this stuff goes far beyond mere pedophilia and sexual abuse, but into torture as well as murder. Ceremonial magic, sorcery, and more are all practiced, and are a source of power and energy among some very powerful people. You can read more about that here.

Malachi Martin, an Irish Catholic priest and writer on the Catholic Church, was originally ordained as a Jesuit priest, and became Professor of Palaeography at the Vatican’s Pontifical Biblical Institute. He gave these insights in his book The Keys of This Blood:

Most frighteningly for [Pope] John Paul [II], he had come up against the irremovable presence of a malign strength in his own Vatican and in certain bishops’ chanceries. It was what knowledgeable Churchmen called the ‘superforce.’ Rumors, always difficult to verify, tied its installation to the beginning of Pope Paul VI’s reign in 1963. Indeed Paul had alluded somberly to ‘the smoke of Satan which has entered the Sanctuary’. . . an oblique reference to an enthronement ceremony by Satanists in the Vatican. Besides, the incidence of Satanic pedophilia – rites and practices – was already documented among certain bishops and priests as widely dispersed as Turin, in Italy, and South Carolina, in the United States. The cultic acts of Satanic pedophilia are considered by professionals to be the culmination of the Fallen Archangel’s rites.

On multiple occasions he spoke about Satanism being the predominant practice within the Vatican. He wasn’t the only one from within to speak about this practice within the Vatican, you can read more about Satanism within the Vatican and see more examples here.

The Takeaway

Child sexual abuse is being exposed in all areas, from politics, to finance, to the Royal Family all the way up to the Vatican. We have been made to idolize and worship Popes, presidents, politicians and celebrities that secretly engage in such activity, but with such ground-breaking events as the conviction of Cardinal George Pell, it looks like people are waking up to what’s really going on.

This is an important step in awakening our consciousness. It’s called breaking the illusion.

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When Marilyn Manson Speaks, This Is Why We Should Listen

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  • The Facts:

    To those who have not heard Marilyn Manson speak, many may conclude on appearance alone that he has nothing meaningful to say.

  • Reflect On:

    What could be the value for people on their spiritual journey to examine the practices and words of someone who so starkly embodies the paradox of darkness and light?

For many people, Marilyn Manson should not be seen or heard. The very essence of his intentional persona–dark, irreverent, grotesque–makes many recoil in horror and disgust. Yet perhaps that is the very reason we may find value in listening to what he has to say.

Fans of his goth-shock rock show aside, individuals seeking to ascend the ladder of consciousness may be able to see in Marilyn Manson a part of their own suppressed fear and darkness turned inside-out. Coming to terms with Marilyn Manson could in some ways help us come to terms with ourselves.

To begin with, most people who have heard Marilyn Manson speak are aware that he is clearly not as he appears to be. In fact, he relishes embodying the paradox of darkness and light like few others. He is thoughtful, soft-spoken, and usually sprinkles in his disarming wit when we are least expecting it. What is undeniable is that he has given much contemplation to the philosophy of life, not in the academic sense as much as with regards to the embodiment of spiritual principles he believes in.

The Rejection Of Religious Dogma

One of the mainstays of Manson’s spiritual paradigm is the recognition that the fundamentalist side of Christianity within Western society is not going to lead to any healing or growth on the part of human individuals. This is because the rituals of Christianity, like going to church and repeating phrases mindlessly, only serve to keep our personal darkness hidden from us. These practices may temporarily assuage our trepidation about our inner chaos, but this is gained at the cost of relinquishing our sense of power to heal ourselves. In the video below, Manson touches upon his views about true spiritual practice:

I think church has very little to do with spirituality. I think it’s something you have to find in yourself, it’s about expressing your deepest fears and emotions, and putting it in something. It’s not about living in fear, and praying, and hoping you’re not going to go to hell, that’s not very spiritual to me.

Manson makes an important distinction between the teachings of Jesus and the trappings of fundamentalist Christianity, and it is a point of discernment that is certainly worth contemplating. He considers himself to be aligned with many of Jesus’ teachings and even suggests in his usual irreverent way that his own life and the life of Jesus have many similarities:

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Usually people hate what they’re afraid of, it’s in the classic story, I think that even kinda goes back to Jesus, you know, they were afraid, didn’t understand him, so they killed him. I think the same thing exists in music, you know, maybe I should just become a Christian, and make them all happy, but, I think if I found Jesus, which–I didn’t know he was lost in the first place–if I did, I don’t think he would probably be that much different than me, you know, he’s a long-haired guy that likes to dress sexy. A lot of chicks were into him.

It’s not that different from what I do, you know, that probably horrifies Christians more than anything to hear that, but, I don’t disagree with a lot of the ideals that he was trying to get across. I just don’t like the way people abuse them to exploit others, and make, even children, feel guilty for having imagination or wanting to be individuals.

It is certainly thought-provoking to imagine how a dark shock-rocker sees similarities between himself and the pure-white savior of mankind. After all, Manson is a strong advocate of Aliester Crowley’s Law of Thelema, “Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.” Does this not contradict the Golden Rule that was espoused by Jesus, “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you”?

Walking The Knife’s Edge

Not necessarily. But we need to be able to walk the knife’s edge in order to see how these two aspects can co-exist. And as you come to understand how these aspects can coexist, you are able to resolve the paradox named Marilyn Monroe Charles Manson.

Manson’s rejection of Christianity is based on his own experience that virtues like individuality, self-expression, and creativity are repressed in orthodox Christian practice. Certainly Friedrich Nietzsche, who Manson greatly admires, had the same condemnation for the institution that was the Catholic Church, where he criticizes the church for its attack on individual passion, desire, and by extension life itself. As Nietzsche says in his book Twilight of the Idols,

The church fights passion with excision in every sense: its practice, its “cure,” is castration. It never asks: “How can one spiritualize, beautify, deify a desire?” It has at all times laid the stress of discipline on extirpation–of sensuality, of pride, of the lust to rule, of avarice, of vengefulness. But an attack on the roots of passion means an attack on the roots of life: the practice of the church is hostile to life.

Manson became a flashpoint for many people because he embodied their highest hope: freedom from the restrictive structures of church and state. His popularity among his followers is in part founded on his embodiment of the emancipation of passion, desire, and individual self-expression, no matter that it is an expression of darkness more often than of light.

Humility

I won’t deny that Marilyn Manson is a troubled person that still has many inner wounds to heal, and the outward projection of that trauma can often be angry and violent. That being said, it seems clear that Manson understands the golden rule as self-evident, and when grounded, his orientation is towards being of service to other people. In general, he is humble enough not to take himself as seriously as many others do, and sees himself as a frail and fallible individual who continues searching for ways to find inner peace and fulfillment.

I like to look at all different religions, you know, I find valuable elements in, you know, Judaism, and Satanism, and Buddhism, and in Christianity as well, I think you can take different things that you can apply to your life, but if you follow anything solely, that’s as stupid as listening to everything that I have to say.

The Takeaway

Insofar as Marilyn Manson embodies a person who is willing to be vulnerable and authentically speak his mind, he inspires people to become more aware of who they are and whether or not they are living authentically. His recognition that we all must be willing to express our deepest fears and emotions, and in so doing expose them to the light of consciousness, is the reason we may be able to find some interesting clues within his provocative life about our own healing journey.

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6 Signs Of Growth To Start Giving Yourself Credit For

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  • The Facts:

    Most of us are our own biggest critics in life. And while that self-criticism can at times be helpful when it comes to accountability, it can also be quite detrimental if all we ever do is mentally bully ourselves.

  • Reflect On:

    What does your internal dialogue primarily consist of? Are you giving yourself enough credit for how you've grown over the years, are do you instead choose to beat yourself up for what you're not?

Whether or not you find yourself regularly on the receiving end of criticism from others, most would agree that the old adage that we are our own toughest critics is true. Even when we manage to accomplish one of the many goals we set out for ourselves, it typically doesn’t take our mind very long to find something within it to criticize.

A common reason for this is that the subjective expectation that so many of us set for ourselves, both consciously and subconsciously, is perfection. And while this frame of mind may seem both ambitious and healthy, as Tony Robbins infamously reminds us:

“Perfection is the lowest standard in the world. Because if you’re trying to be perfect, you know you can’t be. So what you really have is a standard you can never achieve.”

While there are plenty of tools, such as affirmations, meditation and the emotional freedom technique, designed to help us cut back on negative thought–which has been found to take up upwards of 70% of our mental chatter–I’ve found that one of the strongest antidotes is concrete evidence of the opposite.

Start Giving Yourself Credit For Your Successes

To assist in creating this, I’ve put together a list of six signs of growth that we all need to start giving ourselves credit for:

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1. You’re Less Impacted By The Opinions Of Others

While part of this certainly comes naturally with age, the ability to genuinely be YOU regardless of what others may think, say or do about it deserves plenty of recognition. This is especially true in the social media driven world that so many of us are entrenched in, where sending and receiving criticism has never been easier.

So even if there are only certain areas of your life where you can confidently say you are not impacted by the opinions of others, each of those areas is a great accomplishment to celebrate.

2. You’re Not Afraid To Say “No”

To some of us, it comes naturally, while to others it’s one of the toughest words to say despite being only two letters and one syllable. This is especially true when it comes to situations in which it must be said to either a loved one or a figure of authority.

The ability to say ‘no’ to situations you would genuinely not be comfortable in, tasks that you do not have the capacity for, and ideas you don’t believe in, is a superpower that if you are lucky enough to boast, is worth giving yourself credit for.

3. You’re Grateful For Your Past

Whether or not a substantial portion of your past has been riddled in hardship, everything that you’ve experienced in life thus far has played a role in making you into who you are today. The ability to recognize that, by seeing the bigger picture to even the most unfortunate of situations, rather than opting to forever dwell in fear, blame or regret is quite the accomplishment.

4. You Trust The Process

One thing is for certain: no matter our age, body of experience, or list of accomplishments in life, we are all consistently a work-in-progress. The ability to recognize that and know that even a rougher today is paving the way for a smoother tomorrow, rather than overreacting to any and all hardship that comes your way is a rare trait to behold and appreciate.

5. You’re Willing To Genuinely Listen

Despite how seemingly natural listening is, it’s amazing how few of us can genuinely classify ourselves as an effective listener. Unsure as to whether or not you are? Think back on the last non-drama filled conversation that you had with a friend or colleague. When not speaking, did you actually pay attention to and process everything that was said to you? Or did you either find your mind drifting to something unrelated or consistently formulating your next response?

If you not only know how to effectively listen, but you recognize the importance of it and how much can be given and gained from it, give yourself credit for that rare skill.

6. You Celebrate Rather Than Compare Yourself To Others

No matter how accomplished you are in life, you will never be the only one to attain goals similar to those that you are striving for–thankfully! And one of the clearest indicators of growth is gauging your reaction when you first discover the successes of others.

Do you choose to be genuinely happy for them and further inspired by their feat? Or do you find yourself riddled in envy? If you are best described by the first option, then be uplifted by your ability to be a true team player.


Originally written for and published by UPLIFT Connect as 6 Signs You’re Making Great Progress In Life.

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