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My Personal Ayahuasca Experiences: Days 1 & 2



goddess-001aaDay 1 Ayahuasca Nov. 10, 2013

Last night was my first ayahuasca experience. I tried to let go of all expectations beforehand so that I could fully experience the medicine for what it was. Going into the time when I was about to drink it, I became extremely nervous and my heart was racing. At first the only fear I had was that I was going to crap my pants. But when it came down to teatime I was just nervous in general and my heart was really racing. My intentions were simple. I figured I would start off small and go from there. My intentions were to align my energies and balance my chakras, I asked for specific chakras to be focused on; my throat and third eye chakra. So then after I chugged back the brew (which was not nearly as bad as I was expecting) came the waiting period. After everyone had drank the tea they shut off all the lights, this really scared me initially because the room became very dark and quiet, Again, I wasn’t expecting the lights to be off. My heart continued to pound. At this point I wasn’t sure what to do with myself, whether I should sit or lay, have my eyes open or closed. Since my stomach was already in knots and I had already been feeling like I had to go to the washroom I figured that I should go try and do that before I the medicine kicked in and I would be potentially unable to get there. Not too long after this, some of the other people in the room began to show signs that they were feeling the medicine. This made me trip out a little bit because I wasn’t sure what to do. By the time I started to feel it, it started out as intense unpleasant nausea. Then came the visions. At first when I closed my eyes I could see patterns and shapes that were similar to mandalas or fractals.  I was trying to just relax and see the visions, but then I started to see some dark imagery. It is hard to explain exactly what it was that I was seeing, because they were things that I had never really seen before. One thing I remember seeing quite vividly was a creepy image of what looked like the dog from “A Nightmare Before Christmas.” At times I would resist these images and open my eyes to try and make sense of what I was seeing. This was the logical part of my mind I think. I wasn’t necessarily scared, but I didn’t feel like these images help any significance, so I was consciously trying to create a different experience. However, in doing so I believe that I was hindering the experience that I was meant to have. At one point I did actually feel as if I could have gone, as in left my body (I don’t mean died) Mother could have taken me, but at that point I didn’t feel ready and was quite scared. So, I stayed on this physical plain of 3D existence. A common theme throughout the night was seeing the night sky. It was beautiful and full of stars. I was seeing this with my eyes closed and also when I opened them. This was confusing me a bit (again, probably my logical mind) because I kept thinking that I was standing outside and looking at the stars, but then I would realize that I was actually inside laying in the room with a bunch of other people. My mind kept trying to remind me that I was still attached to my body. After I realized this whenever I would see the stars appear I would try and surrender to it and let the experience take me, but I guess that wasn’t in store for me this time. After that, any feelings that I had began to dissipate to the point where I was feeling completely sober. I was thinking, “Well, I guess this is it,” all the while feeling extremely nauseous. So, I just layed down and began to feel really relaxed. I was envisioning a lot of really strange scenarios that at the time I felt held no significance whatsoever. One was of a friend Sarah and I going to a bank. Another was of me driving a car in a really strange unfamiliar looking city. I became so relaxed that I was tired and rolled into the fetal position which I forgot at the time, we aren’t supposed to do because it blocks some of the energy flow, but damn was that comfy. I then began to feel like a ball of complete love, this is a feeling that I have felt before through meditation, such a nice warm fuzzy feeling. J Then I fell asleep and had some pretty crazy dreams to which I can’t remember at all. Throughout my trip I was grateful for being able to have this opportunity. When I woke up it was to the shaman singing, and after having thought my trip was completely over I felt like it was time to purge. I was finally able to do this and man,  was it ever disgusting, but it felt so good to let it out! So then I began to see some more visions, stars and again completely random scenarios. So, I was feeling quite high and still very nauseous. All the while I was wondering if I should go up and ask the Shaman for more. I felt ok enough the way I was and decided against it. After thinking about it I was very, grateful that my first experience was relatively easy. While lying there, towards the end, I was completely tuned into Joe (my boyfriend’s) energy and I was completely able to see why this experience wasn’t for him at this time, and I missed him so much! I could feel his energy so strongly and all I wanted was to feel his physical body against mine. By the time the ceremony ended and the facilitators went around and handed out the chanca piedra tea (this tea is meant to support the liver), I couldn’t wait to go talk to someone. I saw Kyneret lighting up a pacha (jungle tobacco cigarette) and I decided to go say “hi” to her. And that was that for day 1.

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Day 2 Ayahuasca Nov. 11, 2013

OK, kind of an interesting experience last night. I let go of all the fear that I had the previous night. I was feeling calm and completely ready for the experience. I guess I did have some expectations because I was expecting to at least feel more than I felt the previous night. My intentions were to feel what source feels like and to see what source looks like, to feel what it’s like to feel the connection to source.  So, I went up to get my dose feeling completely calm and ready. The Shaman asked if I had felt anything the previous night and I had said a little bit, so he gave me a bit more this time and I put my intentions into the medicine and chugged it back. Yuck.  So then I went back to my seat, sat in a meditative position and just let go. After an hour or so had passed I still wasn’t feeling much of anything, or seeing anything at all. I was OK with this, but I did keep thinking I wonder if it is going to kick in at all. It didn’t really… then I just began to feel very nauseous. I just couldn’t sit up anymore so, I decided to give in and lay down as I wasn’t feeling much anyways. Soon after I lay down, I began to physically feel the effects of the ayahuasca. My body was buzzing and it felt like it was vibrating pretty high. So I just lay there and went into the feeling. It was complete and utter bliss. Once I realized that it was Mother Ayahuasca I just began to smile really big and I said in my mind, “Thank you for showing me what source and unconditional love feels like.” Then I just continued lying there in this complete state of ecstasy. A little while after that the intense nausea came back, quite intensely and I purged. After the purge I felt much better, but didn’t feel much of anything at all anymore, nor was I seeing any visions. By the time the ceremony was over I was completely sober and I went over to talk to my friend Sarah. This night was very interesting cause I soon found out that over half of the people that were there didn’t have much of a “trip,” at all. While Sarah and I were talking another friend Monty came over and started telling us about his experiences, although I felt very happy for him, I w as feeling kind of down about my own experiences and actually kind of jealous. Jealousy is an emotion that I hadn’t felt in quite awhile so I think that it was coming up for a reason. I think that it’s a lesson to just let go of any and all expectations and accept any situation that comes your way for what it is. This was tough because I specifically came to Peru, to have this crazy ayahuasca experience, but alas I can see the perfection in this after all, everything is happening for a reason. It may not seem to be much, but guaranteed there is something in it for you. What I experiences was amazing on its own, but because it wasn’t the same and as visually crazy or far out as my friends I was judging it as not worthy, or less of an experience. By the time Sarah and I got back to our room I was feeling very nauseous, I jumped into bed and tried to sleep. At this time visions were coming so strongly! Well after I had though everything was over. I was seeing eyes. In general, eyes. Cat eyes, reptilian eyes, insect eyes, Asian eyes, most predominantly a green leafy woman’s eyes, (which I related to being Mother Ayahuasca herself) and pretty much any other type of eyes you can imagine. Apparently next ceremony is supposed to be a more intense concentrated brew, so we’ll see what happens. I will try and let go of any expectations of course! 😛

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Weekly Q&A: Trump’s Role, Censorship, CETV, Reader Love



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    Each week we do a Q&A based on questions we receive throughout the week. Our goal is to dive DEEPER into content through the questions. This video covers a few questions from Sept 16 - Sept 22, 2018.

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We have decided to begin doing weekly public Q&A’s based on all the questions we get throughout the week. We have found that people often ask very similar questions (and great questions!) about what’s going on and often times we feel these responses are great for everyone to be hearing as it adds a deeper perspective to what we cover each week. your questions often get us thinking down different paths too, which is awesome and why this community is so damn powerful.

So THANK YOU for your great questions, for engaging and for being part of this all.

I want to also say, for those wanting to get our weekly behind the scenes updates as well as our daily content sent right to your inbox, click here. We know facebook simply does not work anymore for distributing content, so email is the best way.

Update For Sept 16 – Sept 22, 2018

In the video below I go over everything. Be sure to check out the TIMECODES in the description if you want to skip ahead to other topics. I’m through in how I cover things, I know sometimes people want things faster but I don’t see value in not going deep so this is what it is!

This week’s rundown includes:

01:05 : Question regarding Trump’s role
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The Hero’s Adventure: What Movies Can Teach Us About Facing Our Shadow



In Brief

  • The Facts:

    The Hero's Journey is a multi-staged adventure whereby the 'hero' grows to become a new version of themselves, one that is evolved and at a 'higher level' per se.

  • Reflect On:

    Movies can be viewed in many ways. Some see it as programming others as inspiration. How can we use what we see in movies in our own lives? To grow and evolve as people? To recognize our true callings vs those of Hollywood?

The hero’s adventure is a term popularised by Joseph Campbell based upon his 1949 work “The Hero with a Thousand Faces”. The late Campbell was an American Professor of Literature and a philosopher who described the adventure one must embark upon to fully realise who he/she is.

A simple explanation from Campbell:

“A hero ventures forth from the world of common day into a region of supernatural wonder: fabulous forces are there encountered and a decisive victory is won: the hero comes back from this mysterious adventure with the power to bestow boons on his fellow man.”

Campbell uses the word monomyth to describe this adventure which was taken from James Joyce’s book Finnegans Wake.

According to Campbell the monomyth contains 3 stages, with 17 subsections. Not all journeys contain all sections and no two adventures are the same, yet the hero’s adventure follows a surprisingly similar pattern. The 3 stages are 1. A call to seek out some kind of adventure. 2. A trial or initiatory period where the hero must face an obstacle or series of obstacles. 3. The return back home with that which you were seeking to find. This often repeats in a number of ways, with various steps being repeated, but this is the idea.

The 17 Steps Of The Heroes Adventure:

The Call:

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  1. The call to adventure
  2. Refusal of the call
  3. Supernatural aid
  4. Crossing the threshold
  5. Belly of the whale

The Initiation:

  1. The road of trials
  2. The meeting with the goddess
  3. Woman as temptress
  4. Atonement with the father
  5. Apotheosis
  6. The ultimate boon

The Return:

  1. Refusal of the return
  2. The magic flight
  3. Rescue from without
  4. The crossing of the return threshold
  5. Master of two worlds
  6. Freedom to live

When you look to Hollywood movies and best selling fiction books they all follow the same pattern. Star Wars writer, George Lucas, was a friend of Joseph Campbell and famously said that without Campbell there would have been no Star Wars.

Star Wars

If you take Star Wars, it is the perfect example of the Hero’s Journey:

The Call: Luke Skywalker is living a mundane existence, and then while cleaning R2D2 he is shown a holographic recording seeking help from Princess Leia.

The Initiation: Obi-Wan becomes a mentor to Luke, and teaches him to “use the force”. Along the way he meets Han Solo, Chewbacca and other unsuspecting helpers until he completes his apprentice (which he does not know is taking place). Finally after much fighting, Luke is able to rescue Princess Leia and destroy the death star.

The Return: Then he returns home a new man where Leia awards Luke with medals for his heroism.

The Matrix

The Matrix is another example.

The Call: Thomas Anderson is fed up with life at a dead end job and knows there is more to his existence. He has a dream in which his computer types “follow the white rabbit” when someone comes to buy illegal computer programmes from him they ask him to join them on a night out. He declines, but when one of the group turns, she has a tattoo of a white rabbit, so he decides to follow.

The Initiation: Thomas Anderson becomes his computer alias Neo. He meets Trinity, and later Morpheus and is offered to be shown the truth in the form of the red pill (truth) or blue pill (fantasy). He opts for the truth pill and is initiated into a mysterious world where reality as he knew it is actually a computer programme. He gets to download multiple skills, thinks he is The One, but then realises he is not The One. Morpheus gets taken by the agents and he decides to save him.

The Return: Upon trying to save Morpheus he realises he is The One, saves him and defeats the agents. This is him returning with the realisation he is The One, although the return and initiation cross over a little.

This is the same structure you see in Harry Potter, The Wizard Of Oz, Alice In Wonderland, The Alchemist and just about every story based movie there is.

But how is this helpful?

This is the same story we can use as a metaphorical representation of who and where we are in our lives.

If you think life is meaningless and mundane, this means you should be on the lookout for synchronicities and clues of how to break free.

If you have just had a strong urge to go and do something very far removed from your comfort zone that has the potential to change your circumstances, then you probably should.

If you are stuck in a painful situation that seems to have no end, this means you are in an initiation. Being in an initiation does not guarantee you will pass “the test” but at some point you will be given an opportunity to break a cycle or take an opportunity.

If you have just been through an ordeal and conquered your inner (and sometimes outer) demons, bask in the glory, but remember there was 9 Star Wars movies, 4 Matrix movies and 8 Harry Potter books. Your Heroes Adventure may have many chapters, so strap in and try to enjoy the journey.

Much love, Luke.

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“The Consistency Is Mind Boggling” – University Professor On Alien Abductions



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  • The Facts:

    Dr. David M Jacobs, a recently retired Professor and historian, shares the fact that those who claim to have been abducted, and there are millions, share extreme consistency with their stories, and come back with proof.

  • Reflect On:

    Why is this not addressed? As Jacob's points out, if it's not true, then we have the greatest discovery of all time with regards to neurology.

We know that the phenomenon is very, very widespread around the world. People think that this is an American phenomenon, it is not. I’ve worked with people from Africa, and Asia, and Latin-America, and Europe and so forth… All say the same thing all around the world, it does not matter where they’re from. People often ask me whether there’s any consistency in abduction accounts, the consistency is mind-boggling.

The quote above comes from Dr. David M. Jacobs, a recently retired professor of History at Temple University, from the video below. He’s one of many academics who’ve been studying the ‘alien abduction’ phenomenon for a long time. We’re talking about full-out investigations and actual case work. Himself and practically every other researcher in this field would tell you that yes, the consistency is indeed jaw-dropping. People who claim to have been abducted by intelligent extraterrestrials, or come in contact with beings, and there are millions of them all over the world, all share remarkably consistent stories.

I work with people who have MD’s, or psychiatrists, psychologists… people who are university professors, and people who have never been able to hold a job…and everybody in-between. The vast material that they talk about has never been in the public domain, without consistency there is no phenomenon, and it is the consistency that keeps coming back…People are physically missing from their normal environments when they are abducted, people come back with unusual scars on their body, fully formed scars that weren’t there before.

It’s important to make a distinction here. There are all sorts of contacts happening. There are forced abductions, we call these people abductees, then there are simply contactees. Contactees don’t experience any type of forced abduction or strange procedures that are performed on them like abductees, there is also a wealth of data showing that a lot of people have friendly, informative, and mysterious type of contact experiences as well, and there are a range of beings (which also show up with consistency in multiple experiencer accounts) that have also been reported with consistency, including human looking ones. Along with these experiences come telepathic messages, in many cases appear to warn of future destruction unless human rapidly evolves and, grows up, so to speak.

Many abductees also report a sense of remorse and empathy within some of these forced abductions, others do not.

Here’s a great example, a case that involves more than 60 school children in Zimbabwe.

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Dr. Jacobs goes on to state, regarding abductions, a very interesting point

Now, let us suppose it is not happening, all those things still remain, and yet it’s not happening, there is no such thing as the abduction phenomenon. If that is the case, we have found the most important thing ever in the history of neurology, brain function, cognition… All these people are saying the same thing at their risk, this is not going to bring applause to them, that they say they’ve been abducted by aliens from outer space. High functioning people say thisnknowing full well it could destroy their careers, and they say this around the world…And it’s not happening, then what?

The mainstream world has and is currently addressing the UFO topic, but the talk of extraterrestrial visitation as one possible explanation for some of these UFO visitations has still been left out of the equation. For the latest updates on that, you can refer to this article:

The US Government Just Admitted to Recovering Materials From UFOs – Here Are The Latest Updates

All of these people, again, are not crazy. They are normal human beings, many of them who have or had no interest in the phenomenon prior. So, again, either something very important in the history of mental health is going on, or the exact opposite, and if we actually take time to examine the evidence, the answer becomes quite clear.

Some of what people report as UFOs are extraterrestrial (ET) vehicles. Some of those extraterrestrial vehicles actually have ET crews, and some of those ET crews catch and release humans.” — Dr. Don Donderi, a retired McGill University Professor of 40 years in the Department of Psychology (source)

Below is a brief account of one example that pertains to abductions, again, something different from regular contactee experience as mentioned earlier in the article. There is footage of Dr. Jacobs here as well.

Are We Being Prepared For Contact?

Behind the scenes, high-ranking Air Force officers are soberly concerned about the UFOs. But through official secrecy and ridicule, many citizens are led to believe the unknown flying objects are nonsense. To hide the facts, the Air Force has silenced its personnel – Roscoe Hiellenkoetter (source)

Now, with the emergence of mainstream UFO disclosure, although not really addressing the extraterrestrial question, these topics are slowly creeping into the mainstream. It appears that the process of ridicule which existed for so long, via mainstream media, movies, popular television shows and more, seems to have turned into a process of disclosure.

The topic touches all areas of humanity, including metaphysics, spirituality, not just science, technology and questions in those areas. It represents an evolution in all areas, most importantly an evolution in consciousness. It really forces us to question ourselves, and help us understand who we really are as well.

Humanity is at a crossroads, and our hesitance to accept certain realities these days is drifting, and acceptance is coming in. Our perception of reality is shifting, and that alone is creating action around the world to bring about something that can’t really be put into words.

Perhaps this is becoming more relevant at this because there is a message here for humanity, and the experiences of contactees and abductees could perhaps help us decipher that message if they haven’t already. The common theme is something we all internally know in our hearts, the golden rule, and the caretaking of our planet and life upon it.

We as humanity have an enormous amount of potential to create an experience where this type of existence can happen, where we can be free from the chains of economic slavery and allowed to grow and advance as a species. Our destiny is no doubt in the stars.

Recently we interviewed Susan Manewich about her research into this space as well. One of the many profound truths she shared was that of all the contactees they have studied, there is a strikingly similar message shared by all. Check it out below

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