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My Personal Ayahuasca Experiences: Days 1 & 2



goddess-001aaDay 1 Ayahuasca Nov. 10, 2013

Last night was my first ayahuasca experience. I tried to let go of all expectations beforehand so that I could fully experience the medicine for what it was. Going into the time when I was about to drink it, I became extremely nervous and my heart was racing. At first the only fear I had was that I was going to crap my pants. But when it came down to teatime I was just nervous in general and my heart was really racing. My intentions were simple. I figured I would start off small and go from there. My intentions were to align my energies and balance my chakras, I asked for specific chakras to be focused on; my throat and third eye chakra. So then after I chugged back the brew (which was not nearly as bad as I was expecting) came the waiting period. After everyone had drank the tea they shut off all the lights, this really scared me initially because the room became very dark and quiet, Again, I wasn’t expecting the lights to be off. My heart continued to pound. At this point I wasn’t sure what to do with myself, whether I should sit or lay, have my eyes open or closed. Since my stomach was already in knots and I had already been feeling like I had to go to the washroom I figured that I should go try and do that before I the medicine kicked in and I would be potentially unable to get there. Not too long after this, some of the other people in the room began to show signs that they were feeling the medicine. This made me trip out a little bit because I wasn’t sure what to do. By the time I started to feel it, it started out as intense unpleasant nausea. Then came the visions. At first when I closed my eyes I could see patterns and shapes that were similar to mandalas or fractals.  I was trying to just relax and see the visions, but then I started to see some dark imagery. It is hard to explain exactly what it was that I was seeing, because they were things that I had never really seen before. One thing I remember seeing quite vividly was a creepy image of what looked like the dog from “A Nightmare Before Christmas.” At times I would resist these images and open my eyes to try and make sense of what I was seeing. This was the logical part of my mind I think. I wasn’t necessarily scared, but I didn’t feel like these images help any significance, so I was consciously trying to create a different experience. However, in doing so I believe that I was hindering the experience that I was meant to have. At one point I did actually feel as if I could have gone, as in left my body (I don’t mean died) Mother could have taken me, but at that point I didn’t feel ready and was quite scared. So, I stayed on this physical plain of 3D existence. A common theme throughout the night was seeing the night sky. It was beautiful and full of stars. I was seeing this with my eyes closed and also when I opened them. This was confusing me a bit (again, probably my logical mind) because I kept thinking that I was standing outside and looking at the stars, but then I would realize that I was actually inside laying in the room with a bunch of other people. My mind kept trying to remind me that I was still attached to my body. After I realized this whenever I would see the stars appear I would try and surrender to it and let the experience take me, but I guess that wasn’t in store for me this time. After that, any feelings that I had began to dissipate to the point where I was feeling completely sober. I was thinking, “Well, I guess this is it,” all the while feeling extremely nauseous. So, I just layed down and began to feel really relaxed. I was envisioning a lot of really strange scenarios that at the time I felt held no significance whatsoever. One was of a friend Sarah and I going to a bank. Another was of me driving a car in a really strange unfamiliar looking city. I became so relaxed that I was tired and rolled into the fetal position which I forgot at the time, we aren’t supposed to do because it blocks some of the energy flow, but damn was that comfy. I then began to feel like a ball of complete love, this is a feeling that I have felt before through meditation, such a nice warm fuzzy feeling. J Then I fell asleep and had some pretty crazy dreams to which I can’t remember at all. Throughout my trip I was grateful for being able to have this opportunity. When I woke up it was to the shaman singing, and after having thought my trip was completely over I felt like it was time to purge. I was finally able to do this and man,  was it ever disgusting, but it felt so good to let it out! So then I began to see some more visions, stars and again completely random scenarios. So, I was feeling quite high and still very nauseous. All the while I was wondering if I should go up and ask the Shaman for more. I felt ok enough the way I was and decided against it. After thinking about it I was very, grateful that my first experience was relatively easy. While lying there, towards the end, I was completely tuned into Joe (my boyfriend’s) energy and I was completely able to see why this experience wasn’t for him at this time, and I missed him so much! I could feel his energy so strongly and all I wanted was to feel his physical body against mine. By the time the ceremony ended and the facilitators went around and handed out the chanca piedra tea (this tea is meant to support the liver), I couldn’t wait to go talk to someone. I saw Kyneret lighting up a pacha (jungle tobacco cigarette) and I decided to go say “hi” to her. And that was that for day 1.

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Day 2 Ayahuasca Nov. 11, 2013

OK, kind of an interesting experience last night. I let go of all the fear that I had the previous night. I was feeling calm and completely ready for the experience. I guess I did have some expectations because I was expecting to at least feel more than I felt the previous night. My intentions were to feel what source feels like and to see what source looks like, to feel what it’s like to feel the connection to source.  So, I went up to get my dose feeling completely calm and ready. The Shaman asked if I had felt anything the previous night and I had said a little bit, so he gave me a bit more this time and I put my intentions into the medicine and chugged it back. Yuck.  So then I went back to my seat, sat in a meditative position and just let go. After an hour or so had passed I still wasn’t feeling much of anything, or seeing anything at all. I was OK with this, but I did keep thinking I wonder if it is going to kick in at all. It didn’t really… then I just began to feel very nauseous. I just couldn’t sit up anymore so, I decided to give in and lay down as I wasn’t feeling much anyways. Soon after I lay down, I began to physically feel the effects of the ayahuasca. My body was buzzing and it felt like it was vibrating pretty high. So I just lay there and went into the feeling. It was complete and utter bliss. Once I realized that it was Mother Ayahuasca I just began to smile really big and I said in my mind, “Thank you for showing me what source and unconditional love feels like.” Then I just continued lying there in this complete state of ecstasy. A little while after that the intense nausea came back, quite intensely and I purged. After the purge I felt much better, but didn’t feel much of anything at all anymore, nor was I seeing any visions. By the time the ceremony was over I was completely sober and I went over to talk to my friend Sarah. This night was very interesting cause I soon found out that over half of the people that were there didn’t have much of a “trip,” at all. While Sarah and I were talking another friend Monty came over and started telling us about his experiences, although I felt very happy for him, I w as feeling kind of down about my own experiences and actually kind of jealous. Jealousy is an emotion that I hadn’t felt in quite awhile so I think that it was coming up for a reason. I think that it’s a lesson to just let go of any and all expectations and accept any situation that comes your way for what it is. This was tough because I specifically came to Peru, to have this crazy ayahuasca experience, but alas I can see the perfection in this after all, everything is happening for a reason. It may not seem to be much, but guaranteed there is something in it for you. What I experiences was amazing on its own, but because it wasn’t the same and as visually crazy or far out as my friends I was judging it as not worthy, or less of an experience. By the time Sarah and I got back to our room I was feeling very nauseous, I jumped into bed and tried to sleep. At this time visions were coming so strongly! Well after I had though everything was over. I was seeing eyes. In general, eyes. Cat eyes, reptilian eyes, insect eyes, Asian eyes, most predominantly a green leafy woman’s eyes, (which I related to being Mother Ayahuasca herself) and pretty much any other type of eyes you can imagine. Apparently next ceremony is supposed to be a more intense concentrated brew, so we’ll see what happens. I will try and let go of any expectations of course! 😛

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Hegelian Dialectic: A Tool To Enslave Humanity




In Brief

  • The Facts:

    Hegelian thinking is built within our entire social and political structure and is a tool used to control perceptions withing society.

  • Reflect On:

    How much do we play into the elite and system in place simply by moving along with our lives as if everything is the status quo? How are we opting our consciousness out?

Hegelian thinking affects our entire social and political structure. The Hegelian dialectic is the framework for guiding our thoughts and actions into conflicts that lead us to a predetermined solution.

If we do not understand how the Hegelian dialectic shapes our perceptions of the world, then we do not know how we are helping to implement the vision. When we remain locked into dialectical thinking, we cannot see out of the box.

Hegel’s dialectic is the tool which manipulates us into a frenzied circular pattern of thought and action. Every time we fight for or defend against an ideology we are playing a necessary role in the elites game and it holds this system in place. Opting our consciousness out is the key.

The chess board is a well known Masonic or Hegelian symbol, the black and white squares symbolize control through duality in the grand game of life in all aspects. Left or right, white or black people, conservative or liberal, democrat or republican, Christian or Muslim and so on. Through two opposing parties control is gained as both parties reach the same destination, which is order through guided conflict or chaos.

Left (thesis) versus right (antithesis) equals middle ground or control (synthesis). The triangle and all seeing eye we see so often symbolizes the completion of the great work which began almost 6000 years ago when humanity was taken over and disconnected.

The pyramid is supported by the bottom opposing sides. The capstone at the top is established through controlled solution or middle ground. Hegelian dialectic is one in the same, the final plan is in action, however, the system is decayed and destined for failure.

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The dualistic order out of chaos model is based on separation of the people driven by economics. However, the planet is at the apex where consciousness is shifting and people are seeing beyond this game. Therefore the system that is ‘controlling us’ can be will be no more. Those manipulating the planet have used Hegelian dialectic to separate and control brothers and sisters, children of this planet.

The only way to completely stop the privacy invasions, expanding domestic police powers, land grabs, wars against inanimate objects, covert actions, and outright assaults on individual liberty, is to step outside the dialectic and shift consciousness. This releases us from the limitations of controlled and guided thought.

It is all the same game brought on by the cabal of this world, we are choosing to play these roles to support a system designed to hold us back from thriving, but it is time to change that game. We can expect to see more madness and fear tactics from the establishment to keep control., but you are always free to think outside the box and let go of the Hegelian Dialectic. You can view this system for what it is as the moves on the chess board become more and more blatant.

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U.S. Soldier Claims To Have Shot & Killed A 12-Foot Giant In Afghanistan



In Brief

  • The Facts:

    There is corroborating testimony that a patrol of U. S. Soldiers shot and killed a giant 12-15 feet tall in Afghanistan, widely known a 'The Kandahar Giant.'

  • Reflect On:

    What would be the implications about human history if we came to know that there were one or several other humanoid species that once lived on the planet, or indeed still live here today?

In 2002 a U. S. patrol had gone missing in a very remote area of Afghanistan. Another patrol was dispatched on a search and rescue mission, and one soldier on that patrol described what he saw after coming around the side of a mountain:

As we bent around this corner you could see the opening of the cave. And then I see a lot of rocks which is another oddity. And then bone matter. I’m not close enough to identify what kind of bones but I did see what I knew to be a piece of our communications equipment. So instantly we’re thinking ‘ambush,’ maybe animal, you know, could be anything. There was enough room in front of the cave, but it had a sheer drop-off; but there was enough room that we got into a decent dispersal in case of ambush.

Not long after they had gotten into that dispersal formation, they saw something emerge from the cave that, despite their preparedness, caught them fully off guard.

It was a man at least 12 to 15 feet in height. This is a MONSTER. Red beard, with his hair–was longish, past his shoulders, a scarlet red. And Dan runs at him and starts shooting, which broke all of us into the reality–because it was surreal.

While Dan is moving at him, another bro of mine is laying down fire and I start firing. He skewers Dan–he’s now got him on this ‘pike.’ It went through him. He’s got him and he’s coming after more.

We all just clicked in. I don’t know what it was, but I remember we were all like, ‘Shoot him in the face, shoot him in the face!’ He’s taking multiple hits, and he’s still moving.

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Eventually, the giant was killed. Dan had been killed as well. And the patrol unit was soon visited by a helicopter that dropped some cargo netting. They were told they had to bundle up the giant in the netting, and soon after they were done, a larger helicopter came by, dropped a hook, and the giant was carried off.

The soldier confirmed that the red-haired, fair-skinned giant had six fingers on each hand and six toes on each foot. After they had submitted their after-action report, the soldier recounts that they were told by their top brass to re-write it in a particular fashion, presumably to remove any mention of a giant being.

Corroborating Testimony

Although not an eyewitness, another special ops soldier in Afghanistan provides the following corroborating testimony:

We would come back to the base and started hearing this rumor about a unit that killed this, what they started calling this really tall person. At first I didn’t think anything of it, then come to find out that the person they killed was actually three times the size of a man, had extra digits on their hands, and extra digits on their feet, and had red hair, and a special unit had come in and wanted this target.

Well we’d heard that they killed this thing inside a cave, or the mouth of a cave, and there was common knowledge among the military to hear this. When you first hear, you’re thinking like, this has got to be a joke. This has got to be a hoax. Then after things go down a certain way, and you keep hearing it, you start to realize it’s not a joke.

They kept telling us to keep our weapons high, which normally means it’s two to the chest, one to the head, but they kept telling us to put it towards a man’s head, and put it higher. So we would question, why would they want us to shoot higher than a man’s head?

Recorded Interviews

These testimonies are found in the compilation video below, from interviews conducted by L. A. Marzulli with the two soldiers who wanted to remain anonymous. In addition, there is some footage from Coast to Coast with host George Noory featuring a pilot who saw and actually transported the giant.

Pilot’s Testimony

This pilot had landed at a base in Afghanistan and was told that they had to pick up special cargo and that there were absolutely no cameras allowed. The pilot describes the ‘cargo’:

It was basically a dead ‘guy,’ and this guy was extremely large, and when I say large, our pallets are basically, if I remember correctly, about 9 by 12 feet, or so, and this guy was laying in a fetal position, on the pallet, and he filled the pallet. He was around an 1100 pound guy.

The pilot corroborated much more of the details given by the other two witnesses, including the fact that this giant was fair-skinned, red-haired, and had extra digits on his hands and feet.

Widespread Corroboration

As impressive as the consistency of these three separate testimonies is, there is actually much more widespread corroboration about the existence of fair-skinned, red-haired giants with six fingers and toes, and double rows of teeth. Certainly, in Afghanistan, the stories among the natives were rampant about the existence of cannibalistic giants living in caves. The soldiers who could understand the natives’ language tended to refer to these stories as ‘legends’, although a few noted that the presence of bones near cave entrances suggested that humans were killed and eaten by something living in the cave, either by ambush or, according to the natives, by sacrifices they offered the giant.

There is plenty of evidence that a cannibalistic, red-haired race of giants once inhabited North America, and menaced several native tribes whose folklore and legends (or for the tribes, history) tell stories similar to the one recounted in this article:

After years of strife and numerous casualties on both sides of the fence, the natives decided to end this giant threat for good-by uniting under a single flag. It wasn’t long until the red-haired giants were crippled and forced out of their homes.

The giants retreated inside a cave, but were tracked down by the natives, and with a will to avenge their fallen brethren, they set up a considerable fire that had them all burnt or intoxicated. Those who ventured outside to try to escape the putsch were met with retribution to the last one.

In reference to red-haired giants, there is a discussion between David Wilcock and Corey Goode where it is said that these giants have been found in stasis, which means in suspended animation, until such a time that they are supposed to return. More than one person within the UFO community has borne witness to these red-haired giants being found in stasis chambers, in full battle regalia and other adornments, seemingly in preparation to resume their role on Earth at the appointed time.

Reasons For Non-Disclosure

In asking one of the U. S. army witnesses why this information was being kept secret from the world, he said,

My personal opinion is, if it points to the Bible’s accurate, they don’t want it. If it goes against Darwinian Evolution, it’s not to be spoken of.

This is very much in keeping with my previous article on Giants in North America, where it seems that those in power are trying their best to keep everybody from finding out that human history is very different from the neo-Darwinian model in which human evolution has been a slow, unbroken, random pattern without intervention from any other sentient species. It’s likely that just learning of the existence of one different species here on Earth would completely break the spell and have a majority of us ready to demand the truth about our history and our place in this universe alongside other intelligent species.

Snopes Weighs In

Of course mainstream attempts to dampen the credibility of this type of story starts at the top–the top of a Google search, I mean. A search on ‘Kandahar Giant,’ predictably, has this Snopes article first on the list, to tell us of course that the whole story is false. The proof?

A Department of Defense spokesman told us they have no record of such an incident: “We do not have any record or information about a special forces member killed by a giant in Kandahar.”

If you’ve made it this far in the article, I rather doubt that this ‘proof’ is very compelling to you.

Our Role

Our role as awakened and awakening citizens in the truth-seeking community is to continue to do our best to bring to light all the evidence of information that has been suppressed, hidden and denied. As more and more eyewitnesses and other whistleblowers gain the courage to come out and talk about what they have experienced, it is becoming easier to start building a bigger picture about our true history and what’s really going on in our world.

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6 Of The Most Asked Questions On Google & What They Say About Us



In Brief

  • The Facts:

    Google is an incredible resource that helps us get the answers to many of life's questions at incredible speeds. But as our search habits suggest, we seem to be turning to it a bit too much for a number of unhealthy reasons.

  • Reflect On:

    What are you regularly turning to Google for? Are the answers you're getting actually of value, or are they instead rooted in a deeper issue?

The world is filled with a seemingly endless number of resources for us to tap into or seek out the council of. Yet, when it comes to finding the answers to some of our most important questions we all seem to go to one place: Google.

And while Google may be incredibly effective at providing us access to the answers of many of our questions at what seems like light-speed, it can also be quite damaging.

To illustrate this I’d like to present to you six of the most commonly asked questions that we as a collective tend to turn to Google for, what I believe they say about humanity, and why we need to stop turning to Google for the answers to them.

Please note that these are just six OF the most asked questions, and not the six most. These six are particular ones that stood out to me as troubling and worth commenting on. So here they are in ascending order based on how frequently they are searched per month globally. (All stats found on Mondovo

A written version of the video is available below as well.

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6. Which celebrity do I look like?

Search frequency: 14,800 times per month

While on the surface this search seems purely fun, what concerns me about it being searched with such frequency is that it really showcases how much our thoughts are rooted in comparison.

We all know that social media as a whole is a cesspool of comparison, where the vast majority of us post nothing but the highlight reel captures of our life rather than true snippets of our reality. The last thing we need is to even further compare ourselves to those we aren’t connected to on social media -especially those who for the most part work in an industry obsessed with physical appearances.

We need to keep in mind that the way Katy Perry looks on the red carpet is different from the way she looks upon waking up on a Friday morning. Let’s choose to embrace our uniqueness and spend our spare time being ourselves rather than comparing that person to who we think we need to be.

5. Why did I get married?

Search frequency: 49,500 times per month

With divorce rates being where they are, we all know that the institution of marriage is rapidly crumbling before our feet. And while whether that is a good or bad thing is a matter of opinion, I still don’t think we should be turning to Google for reminders on why we opted to participate in it.

Rather than reading someone’s blog on why you should appreciate your partner, or another person’s rant on why we should all run from marriage like the plague, choose to spend that time instead of having an open conversation with your spouse.

Be honest about where you stand with things and come to a collective conclusion as to what you can and cannot do as the next steps.

4. Who unfollowed me on Instagram?

Search frequency: 74,000 times per month

This is my personal favourite on the list because there are few things that amuse me more than seeing the importance that so many of us put on our “Instagram ratio”.

Long gone are the days where we happily followed and liked everyone and everything, and here to stay are the days where we handpick who we follow to give off a “celebrity status” based on the seemingly much higher amount of people who have chosen to follow us.

If you care so much about your following count dropping from 714 to 713 that you need to look into who it was that you lost overnight (or even if you realize that the drop happened at all) you’ve got some serious self-worth issues that you need to address and work beyond.

3. How to make money online?

Search frequency: 135,000 times per month

As someone who has not only worked for various companies who have made substantial amounts of money online, and who has several initiatives to do so myself, I can tell you one thing: it doesn’t come easy!

It not only takes persistent and high-quality effort to build a YouTube subscriber base or to create a website that generates regular traffic, it also takes money to make money.

We need to debunk the belief that the internet is a great way to get rich quick. Realize that everyone who is advertising their online course, seminar, or book designed to help you do this, is doing that as their primary tactic to attain wealth -and they’re paying a hell of a lot of money to get their ad in your face. Those who have attained it have much bigger and better things to do.

2. How to lose weight fast?

Search frequency: 301,000 times per month

On the surface, this too seems well-intentioned since it’s great to see that a large portion of us are regularly searching for ways to improve our health. But what concerns me about this is largely the last word: fast.

We live in a world where we need instantaneous results (hence why we’re turning to Google in the first place) or we don’t bother. Long-term solutions exist but we have virtually no confidence in our ability to commit to anything, so we instead opt for ways to cheat the system.

If losing weight or gaining muscle is truly important to you, than focus on what you’ll need to do to keep yourself motivated to put the work in to get there rather than what can zap it away.

1. Any and all health advice

Search frequency: Unknown but seemingly infinite

We’ve all done it. We go to Google for advice on a persistent pimple and three minutes later we’re convinced that we are mere weeks away from being on our deathbed.

While there are plenty of great articles and medical journals scattered throughout the net, there is also a lot of “click-baity” crap with nothing to support much of what it suggests.

Please understand that this is NOT an attack against alternative media outlets, I firmly believe that even the most widely-accepted forms of media are ladened in questionable sourcing and ruled by greed. So rather than taking your chances, why not instead turn a trusted healthcare professional who can diagnose your unique circumstance?

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