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My Personal Ayahuasca Experiences: Days 3,4,5

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Hologram-Alex-Grey-2Day 3 Ayahuasca Nov 13, 2013

So, yesterday morning we did the tobacco purge. This was absolutely amazing! Of course it was disgusting beyond belief, but it was definitely worth it! I purged out a lot of mucous and foam, and I felt incredible afterwards! We were encouraged to jump in the pond immediately afterwards, so I did just that, let me tell you, it was effing freezing! (Mind you, it is a glacier filled pond.) What a great way to shock the system after the purge, while in the lake I could not even breather but I just tried to swim around for about 20 seconds. It was definitely worth it though because I felt so amazing afterwards and was very happy to have contributed in both of those activities that morning.  The whole process made me feel even more ready for the ceremony. After lunch I went to have a consultation with the Shaman. Right away almost before I even sat down he told me that I had been carrying some dark entities for quite sometime. I thought this was absolutely amazing because I have known about this for quite some time and it was cool that he had picked up on this so easily and confirmed it for me. He told me that these dark beings had been holding back my experiences out of fear of being let go during the first two sessions. He then did some energy work on me to loosen up the energies and told me to ask Mother Ayahuasca to help me to clear and release these entities. So, after that I was feeling very afraid of having to face these beings. To be honest, I was actually terrified of it! At one point I even almost cried. By the time the ceremony was getting closer I was feeling much better and actually excited to finally get rid of this darkness that I had been holding onto for at least a few years. Come ceremony time I was feeling quite short of breath, which was probably because of the fire breathing that we had been doing before during yoga. This made me feel a bit nervous again. Anyways, after I had drunk I began to welcome the experience. Quite a bit of time had passed and I hadn’t experienced much yet except for seeing quite a bit of dark energy around the room. I could feel that some of it was definitely coming from me. So, still not feeling much, I was just waiting to see if the Shaman was going to ask if anyone wanted a second dose. When he did ask I was the only one to get up and drink again. Maybe 20-30 minutes later it began to kick in and I was feeling quite drunk, as they call it. I wasn’t seeing much, but I was feeling a lot of energy within myself. I was very nauseous and couldn’t sit still at all. I was battling something within for sure. I really had to throw up, but I was trying to hold in the Ayahuasca as long as I could because I had just taken that second dose. Finally, I decided to let it all go. As I started purging I realized that this vomit was quite different from my previous purges, it was much thicker and it burned more, it was very resistant to come out and it was quite the struggle. With each heave, my head was shaking violently back and forth. At that point I realized that I was purging out the demons or dark entities and I really let it all go. After I was finally done I laid back and felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders and I immediately felt lighter, I felt free. After that I really wanted to confirm with the Shaman whether or not the beings were really gone, but I was told by one of the facilitators that I should not bring attention to it. She felt as though they were gone, and if I felt as though they were gone that was good enough. I should not put any energy towards them at all, in general.

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Day 4 Ayahuasca November 15, 2013

This night was by far the most intense Ayahuasca experience so far. My intention was to have my pineal gland unblocked and for Mama Aya to take me for a ride, she did. It started out slow as usual, but then I began to feel really drunk. I started to see visions. It started out as colorful mandalas and pretty images and then all of the sudden my friend Monty and I were sitting in a small yellow room having a nice playful conversation, out of nowhere I said “hey we are not sitting here talking right now we are lying on our mats drunk on ayahuasca!” And he said, “Oh hey! You’re right, wow!” And then poof! The image shattered. After that I continued to be really, really drunk, but I can’t remember many more details about what I saw. I may have even fallen asleep for a bit. It seemed like no time had passed and the Shaman was already going around and singing his Icaros for each person, by the time he got to me I was so happy to see him, I was feeling tremendous amounts of love for him and everyone else in the room. I smiled up at him the whole time he was doing his thing. Right before this though, I purged and felt like I had directly cleared the blockages residing near my pineal gland. After the purge, I felt very peaceful. When the ceremony came to an end, I as well as the rest of the people in the yurt, were still feeling the effects of the ayahuasca. The facilitators poured the tea and everyone just lay there and continued the experience. At that time I began to feel a huge surge of sexual energy coursing through my whole body. This was really intense and went on for about an hour, to be honest I was feeling extremely aroused the whole time and it felt great.  During the group session I asked Rob what this meant and he said that maybe the reason that I was feeling so sexually charged was because I may have been letting go of old blockages and past sexual experiences. This was awesome to hear because I was definitely carrying some of that. I was amazing that the ayahuasca knew that this was something that I needed to let go of, without even having me set it as an intention. Also, my friend Monty told me that he kept seeing me as a Valkyrie and then Rob said that at first he was seeing me as an enigma and then he was seeing me as a Valkyrie too. Cool! Maybe I was one in a past life.

 

Day 5 Ayahuasca November 16, 2013

So this was the last Ayahuasca ceremony of the retreat, considering that the previous ceremony had been somewhat intense I guess again, I did have some pretty high expectations for this one. My intentions were for the medicine to show me self love, and also anything else that needed to be dealt with that I wasn’t seeing. The Shaman poured me a glass that was about three quarters full and I put my intentions into the cup, chugged it back and went back to the mat and waited. Over an hour had passed and I wasn’t feeling anything energetically or seeing anything visually. Soon after that a strong sense of knowing came over me that this was one of my lessons: You do not need anything external to help you find self love or peace in your life. I knew this already, but this feeling that I got definitely confirmed this and made me feel a bit more relaxed during the rest of the ceremony. A little while later Alex asked if anyone would like a second cup. I was thinking about going up, but then I decided not to bother, as I knew that it would make me feel quite sick. Right after that, I started to feel pretty nauseous and I began to have a vision. There was a whole bunch of beautiful Native American warrior type women on horses. They appeared to be trapped in a valley with a huge gate that was preventing them from getting out. Then all of the sudden the women began charging on their horses towards the gate at full speed. As I was seeing this I began to feel vomit creeping its way up. As soon as the women reached the gate it flung wide open and the women were released to run free. At the exact moment that the gate flung open I purged. It was as if me purging was what released the women. For a while I was trying to analyze and make sense of this vision. What came to me may sound a bit corny, but it is what resonates the most.  I was releasing my inner goddess and femininity; letting it go instead of repressing it. Coming to that realization was pretty awesome and I felt proud of myself. For the rest of the night as I lay on my mat, I was basically receiving a huge ego boost from either my higher self or my guides, except my ego wasn’t getting engaged at all, actually it seemed to be gone for the time being. I was hearing compliment after compliment after compliment. Each was saying how I am worthy, I am beautiful and in general people really do like me. I was receiving confirmation against every self doubt I have ever had, It’s OK that I can be quiet sometimes, that is just a part of who I am etc.… etc.… I guess this directly relates to my intention to feel self-love.

 

And that wraps up my 5 ceremonies with Mother Ayahuasca, and what an incredible journey it was.

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Consciousness

On Taking Life Too Seriously

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In Brief

  • The Facts:

    Much of the time in life, we allow ourselves to take situations VERY seriously. This will sometimes turn pain into suffering, or prolong the challenges we face for growth. It also stops us from truly finding peace in life.

  • Reflect On:

    Do you feel a constant sense of anxiety in your life? Underlying everything? Where do you notice you take life or situations too seriously? What do you do to begin connecting back to self, and taking life less seriously?

Do you go through life with constant angst? A feeling deep down that there is always a little bit of stress or a little bit of worry? I’ve been through this. And in some ways, I thought it would never go away. But I focused on self awareness and living in the heart enough to kiss those days goodbye.

We can sure take life too seriously at times can’t we? I mean it’s fair. We have stresses in life that we get caught up in, we go, go, go, go, and often forget to take a moment to breathe. In Western culture, it’s all about obsessing over goals and getting there and telling ourselves sotries about what life will be like when we do finally get there… but what often happens to us when we live this way? We step into unconsciousness. We stop taking time to FEEL.

I want to help us remember to be STILL with this.

Various experiences and events have taken place in my life that have challenged some of my deepest ideals, belief systems and concepts that I felt were a part of me. This has gone on and occurred in my entire 11 year journey of truly changing myself. Whether it had to do with the work I do, friends, the world, relationships or big decisions in life, many things were challenged. It has truly been an incredible ride.

We sometimes might think “when will all the change and ‘chaos’ end?” A good question indeed, but isn’t this what we are here for at this time? To truly look at ourselves, look at all that we hold onto and all that we define our reality with. Literally everything! If you are feeling like you are the only one out there going through this stuff and feel like everything is backwards -that things are constantly being challenged, know that what you are experiencing is perfect, and we must remember to have fun with it!

Not Just A Human Experience

We are not here at this time to simply have ‘a human experience,’ we are here to evolve the human experience. It’s different! Stop looking at the past to tell us what to do, how we should move forward, and what ‘the greats’ did in our past to figure things out. We are not in that time, and the zeitgeist of our time now is not to simply exist but to be present as we deeply evolve the way of life on this planet.

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We hear a lot “but we’re human, just embrace that!” That’s all fine, but what does that mean? What is a human? How should we be? Does being human mean accepting the world as it is? Are we capable of more? Can we redefine what it means to be human and what life should look like? Why do we give up so easily on dreaming big about these things?

I used to accept MANY limitations about myself and what I could do. But eventually, I was faced with the chance to let all that go, and reimagine what was possible. Even when everyone told me I was crazy and I couldn’t do what I was trying to do, I used my connection to self and consciousness to create it. Because I believed I was capable of more, and so is everyone else. This is how Collective Evolution, the site your on, came to be.

Embracing Change

After experiencing the many deep questions and challenges I have thus far, overcoming them and moving forward, I have one very special thing that I have reminded myself about over and over and truly understand to a deep level. We are here to play and evolve! None of what we are experiencing is as serious as we think!!

The mind and ego can make things very real, very dramatic, very frightening. I know! But the highest aspect of who we are is always clear, always neutral, and always sharing with us exactly what we need to hear because IT IS US! We are not the mind or the stories it creates that makes things so serious. They are there because that is our challenge. To go beyond the mind and the stories it creates -so we can experience this sensorial world and remember who we truly are (click to listen to my podcast on this topic.)

So let’s remember, whether it’s life choices, relationships, friends, work, family, sports, or everyday events, know that it’s just an experience! We can spend our whole lives always caught up in the drama and the intensity, saying “oh my gosh things are so tough, the world is so crazy, my life is upside down, and I’m so busy!” but where does this lead us? This is a question we must ask ourselves.

If we remain caught up in these perceptions, repetitive patterns of mind, we will continue to miss out on the entire journey we are on because we are lost and caught up in the mind. We perpetuate our so called “suffering” when we make things serious and make them a big deal. When we can see it for what it is, we allow the emotions to subside, allow back in our full potential and know how to take action forward. This is called finding true peace.

I’m not talking about simply accepting things and saying “well get over it” or “that’s how it is, so deal with it.” No. I’m talking about truly seeing things for what they are. Seeing why we color something in a particular way. Seeing the belief system behind why something is good or bad or right or wrong or even why it’s serious!

I promise you, behind every strong emotion, every serious situation, there is a belief system that makes it that way. One that is held in the mind and made real by the mind. But the mind is not YOU! See the story! Let it go and just play! You will find much peace and joy in flowing through your experience in this way.

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Where Does Donald Trump REALLY Stand On Syria?

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  • The Facts:

    Recently, Democratic Hawaiian Congresswoman Tulsi Gabbard lashed out against Trump for his rhetoric and policy in Syria that is the polar opposite of what he ascribed to in their meeting on Syria less than two years ago.

  • Reflect On:

    Is it possible that this whole Syria drama is playing out for the sake of awakening people to the larger reality behind these events?

In 2016, Democratic Hawaiian Congresswoman Tulsi Gabbard met with Donald Trump to discuss Syria policy at a private meeting at Trump Tower in November, just ahead of then president-elect Trump being sworn into office. At the time the two appeared to be in complete agreement over Syria policy. Gabbard said this after the meeting:

“I felt it important to take the opportunity to meet with the President-elect now before the drumbeats of war that neocons have been beating drag us into an escalation of the war to overthrow the Syrian government—a war which has already cost hundreds of thousands of lives and forced millions of refugees to flee their homes in search of safety for themselves and their families.”

The following summer President Trump allegedly shut down the CIA’s clandestine efforts for overthrowing the Damascus government, a covert program called ‘Timber Sycamore’, after reports said he was increasingly disturbed by the brutal and jihadist nature of the armed opposition. All the way up until April 2018, he had appeared to be pushing toward withdrawing the over 2,000 US troops from Syria, against which advisers and neocon warmongers vehemently pushed back. Trump had proposed,

“Let the other people take care of it now. Very soon, very soon, we’re coming out. We’re going to get back to our country, where we belong, where we want to be.”

But that was then. Today, Trump’s stance has changed. Or has it?

Responding To Chemical Weapons False Flag

We all know what happened next. Just days after Trump’s statement touting the withdrawal of American troops, video emerged from Idlib purporting to show an Assad sarin attack on Khan Sheikhoun in Idlib province, to which Trump responded with a brief Tomahawk missile strike on a largely abandoned Syrian military airport in the center of the country. Trump launched an even bigger attack on Damascus the following April following more unverified opposition claims of another gas attack.

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Now, I would bet my bottom dollar that Trump knows very well that those two alleged chemical attacks were orchestrated false flags in order to promote a military response against Syria. If this is the case, then why would he have authorized the attacks, and why did he recently issue a warning against Syrian, Russian and Iranian forces against attacking al-Qaeda forces in Idlib?

Tulsi Gabbard Calls Out Trump

The way Tulsi Gabbard sees it, there are two reasons, which she elaborated upon in this video:

“One is because, if you look back over the last couple of years, the two times that President Trump has received vast positive reinforcement from the mainstream media, from Democratic leaders. from Republican leaders, have been the two times he has launched military attacks against Syria. His poll numbers are dropping. So he’s looking with a political calculation of what’s the thing that I know will make it so that people are saying nice things about me again?

The second reason is because there’s been this long, slow regime change war happening in Syria, we’ve been waging this long war since 2011, and the main ground force in that war has been al-Qaeda, and these other Jihadist terrorist groups. And so there have been both direct and indirect support of these groups fighting on the ground, to overthrow this regime, and, so their concerned that if these terrorist groups like al-Qaeda are taken out in Idlib, what happens to the ground force fighting to overthrow the Syrian government? And this leads us to the United States alliance with Saudi Arabia, who would like to see a Wahabi extremist government replace the government that’s in Syria.”

A couple of days after commemorative speeches about 9/11 were presented by the Trump administration, Ms. Gabbard took the opportunity to contrast the rhetoric in those speeches with the current position of the administration on Syria, using the full minute afforded general speeches in the House of Representatives:

Are They Just Role-Playing?

A speech like that seems to me to be addressed not to Congress, not to Donald Trump, but rather to the public in general, to wake up and realize that all that’s going on is pure theatre, and that without the public waking up none of us can move forward. Bringing up the specter of “Al-Qaeda”, which seems to be the tried and true boogeyman of terrorism that everyone recognizes, is one clue. The suggestion the 9/11 was the fault of al-Qaeda is another. It seems like there is a need to wake people up with a narrative that has some familiarity, in order not to shock them.

Do we really think Donald Trump is a supporter of Jihadi groups trying to unseat Syrian president Bashar al-Assad? Of course not. His reasonable stance on withdrawing from Syria up until April of this year seems to be how he sincerely feels, but for some reason those feelings have to be shelved for the moment. Indeed, he has limitations in terms of what his ‘character’ in this drama is allowed to say. Notice these two almost contradictory remarks about the Syria situation that came out within a few days of each other:

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You will note that while the first tweet condemning radical Jihadis garnered a little over 4K likes, his condemnation of Syria, Iran and Russia got almost 72K likes. In a way, this might actually explain why he has turned against Russia and Syria of late. Does he need to reconnect to his base and those who still believe the full weight of the Russia-is-bad narrative? Tulsi Gabbard alluded to his poll numbers; one has to wonder if there are deeper reasons why a president’s popularity is an important aspect of his ability to get things done. The other theory one might hold is that he is under blackmail pressure from the Rothschilds and the Deep State. He goes ahead and unleashes fiery rhetoric against Assad, but then his retaliatory missile attack barely does any harm.

One way or another, the inconsistency and contradictions in Trump’s words and actions must be more than the vicissitudes of a bombastic blowhard. I think there is a method to the madness, though a method whose logic is currently difficult to pin down.

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Real Life Hero: One Man Rescued 64 Dogs & Cats From Hurricane Florence In A School Bus

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  • The Facts:

    In the wake of Hurricane Florence many pets were left behind. Thanks to a real life hero, Tony Alsup, the lives of dozens of animals were saved.

  • Reflect On:

    Are you deeply inspired to assist those in need, whatever that may look like to you? If you are not taking action now, how can you begin taking action on that inspiration?

After officials announced their stern clear message to people living in the coastal towns of North Carolina, Leave, Now. “You put your life at risk by staying, don’t plan to leave once the rain and winds start.” More than 1 million people were told to leave. Unfortunately because of the rush and severity of the incoming storm many people panicked and left their pets behind.

Shelters across the southeastern coast have been struggling to make room for an influx of pets that have been dropped off. Thankfully, there are some real life heroes out there and because of these compassionate and courageous people the lives of dozens of abandoned animals will be saved and have the chance to find a new home.

Last week, a couple from North Carolina rescued around 20 pets from shelters in their “fluffy bus,” and a truck driver, Tony Alsup loaded up 64 cats and dogs in his school bus, eventually driving them towards safety, outside the hurricane warning zone.

“It’s so easy for people to adopt the small pets and the cuties and the cuddly,” Alsup told the Greenville News. “We take on the ones that deserve a chance even though they are big and a little ugly. But I love big dogs, and we find places for them.”

Greenville News reported that the animal lover from Tennessee spent $3,200 on a school bus to collect all of the sheltered pet’s from disaster zones across the country. Several days before Hurricane Florence hit, Alsup drove through South Carolina and collected 53 dogs and 11 cats into the bus from various shelters across the state. He drove them to a private dog shelter in Alabama where many were adopted, others were sent to other adoption centers across the states who had a little room to spare for the un-adopted animals.

Pets Often Get Left Behind

It’s unfortunate, but in the days before a hurricane, pet shelters begin to fill up and government run shelters in some jurisdictions are not allowed to turn away new animals, but this sometimes means that they have to put down other animals to make space for the new ones. People become frantic and don’t know what to do with their pets, so they drop them off at shelters, even though there is little that these shelters can do to rescue all of these animals from disasters such as hurricanes.

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Some of the animals of South Carolina were truly blessed to have good samaritans like Alsup swoop in to save their lives. He aims to head back down to Wilmington North Carolina, an area where the flooding has caused road closures in order to save even more animals in need.

“Animals—especially shelter pets—they always have to take the back seat of the bus,” Alsup told the Post. “But I’ll give them their own bus. If I have to I’ll pay for all the fuel, or even a boat, to get these dogs out of there.”

Isn’t it amazing to see people performing such selfless acts to save the lives of those in need? Way to go Tony for your continued efforts to save the lives of countless animals. May he be an inspiration to us all to do what we can in times of need.

You can follow Alsup’s journey on Facebook and donate to his gas and upkeep funds through his Paypal.

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