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My Personal Ayahuasca Experiences: Days 3,4,5

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Hologram-Alex-Grey-2Day 3 Ayahuasca Nov 13, 2013

So, yesterday morning we did the tobacco purge. This was absolutely amazing! Of course it was disgusting beyond belief, but it was definitely worth it! I purged out a lot of mucous and foam, and I felt incredible afterwards! We were encouraged to jump in the pond immediately afterwards, so I did just that, let me tell you, it was effing freezing! (Mind you, it is a glacier filled pond.) What a great way to shock the system after the purge, while in the lake I could not even breather but I just tried to swim around for about 20 seconds. It was definitely worth it though because I felt so amazing afterwards and was very happy to have contributed in both of those activities that morning.  The whole process made me feel even more ready for the ceremony. After lunch I went to have a consultation with the Shaman. Right away almost before I even sat down he told me that I had been carrying some dark entities for quite sometime. I thought this was absolutely amazing because I have known about this for quite some time and it was cool that he had picked up on this so easily and confirmed it for me. He told me that these dark beings had been holding back my experiences out of fear of being let go during the first two sessions. He then did some energy work on me to loosen up the energies and told me to ask Mother Ayahuasca to help me to clear and release these entities. So, after that I was feeling very afraid of having to face these beings. To be honest, I was actually terrified of it! At one point I even almost cried. By the time the ceremony was getting closer I was feeling much better and actually excited to finally get rid of this darkness that I had been holding onto for at least a few years. Come ceremony time I was feeling quite short of breath, which was probably because of the fire breathing that we had been doing before during yoga. This made me feel a bit nervous again. Anyways, after I had drunk I began to welcome the experience. Quite a bit of time had passed and I hadn’t experienced much yet except for seeing quite a bit of dark energy around the room. I could feel that some of it was definitely coming from me. So, still not feeling much, I was just waiting to see if the Shaman was going to ask if anyone wanted a second dose. When he did ask I was the only one to get up and drink again. Maybe 20-30 minutes later it began to kick in and I was feeling quite drunk, as they call it. I wasn’t seeing much, but I was feeling a lot of energy within myself. I was very nauseous and couldn’t sit still at all. I was battling something within for sure. I really had to throw up, but I was trying to hold in the Ayahuasca as long as I could because I had just taken that second dose. Finally, I decided to let it all go. As I started purging I realized that this vomit was quite different from my previous purges, it was much thicker and it burned more, it was very resistant to come out and it was quite the struggle. With each heave, my head was shaking violently back and forth. At that point I realized that I was purging out the demons or dark entities and I really let it all go. After I was finally done I laid back and felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders and I immediately felt lighter, I felt free. After that I really wanted to confirm with the Shaman whether or not the beings were really gone, but I was told by one of the facilitators that I should not bring attention to it. She felt as though they were gone, and if I felt as though they were gone that was good enough. I should not put any energy towards them at all, in general.

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Day 4 Ayahuasca November 15, 2013

This night was by far the most intense Ayahuasca experience so far. My intention was to have my pineal gland unblocked and for Mama Aya to take me for a ride, she did. It started out slow as usual, but then I began to feel really drunk. I started to see visions. It started out as colorful mandalas and pretty images and then all of the sudden my friend Monty and I were sitting in a small yellow room having a nice playful conversation, out of nowhere I said “hey we are not sitting here talking right now we are lying on our mats drunk on ayahuasca!” And he said, “Oh hey! You’re right, wow!” And then poof! The image shattered. After that I continued to be really, really drunk, but I can’t remember many more details about what I saw. I may have even fallen asleep for a bit. It seemed like no time had passed and the Shaman was already going around and singing his Icaros for each person, by the time he got to me I was so happy to see him, I was feeling tremendous amounts of love for him and everyone else in the room. I smiled up at him the whole time he was doing his thing. Right before this though, I purged and felt like I had directly cleared the blockages residing near my pineal gland. After the purge, I felt very peaceful. When the ceremony came to an end, I as well as the rest of the people in the yurt, were still feeling the effects of the ayahuasca. The facilitators poured the tea and everyone just lay there and continued the experience. At that time I began to feel a huge surge of sexual energy coursing through my whole body. This was really intense and went on for about an hour, to be honest I was feeling extremely aroused the whole time and it felt great.  During the group session I asked Rob what this meant and he said that maybe the reason that I was feeling so sexually charged was because I may have been letting go of old blockages and past sexual experiences. This was awesome to hear because I was definitely carrying some of that. I was amazing that the ayahuasca knew that this was something that I needed to let go of, without even having me set it as an intention. Also, my friend Monty told me that he kept seeing me as a Valkyrie and then Rob said that at first he was seeing me as an enigma and then he was seeing me as a Valkyrie too. Cool! Maybe I was one in a past life.

 

Day 5 Ayahuasca November 16, 2013

So this was the last Ayahuasca ceremony of the retreat, considering that the previous ceremony had been somewhat intense I guess again, I did have some pretty high expectations for this one. My intentions were for the medicine to show me self love, and also anything else that needed to be dealt with that I wasn’t seeing. The Shaman poured me a glass that was about three quarters full and I put my intentions into the cup, chugged it back and went back to the mat and waited. Over an hour had passed and I wasn’t feeling anything energetically or seeing anything visually. Soon after that a strong sense of knowing came over me that this was one of my lessons: You do not need anything external to help you find self love or peace in your life. I knew this already, but this feeling that I got definitely confirmed this and made me feel a bit more relaxed during the rest of the ceremony. A little while later Alex asked if anyone would like a second cup. I was thinking about going up, but then I decided not to bother, as I knew that it would make me feel quite sick. Right after that, I started to feel pretty nauseous and I began to have a vision. There was a whole bunch of beautiful Native American warrior type women on horses. They appeared to be trapped in a valley with a huge gate that was preventing them from getting out. Then all of the sudden the women began charging on their horses towards the gate at full speed. As I was seeing this I began to feel vomit creeping its way up. As soon as the women reached the gate it flung wide open and the women were released to run free. At the exact moment that the gate flung open I purged. It was as if me purging was what released the women. For a while I was trying to analyze and make sense of this vision. What came to me may sound a bit corny, but it is what resonates the most.  I was releasing my inner goddess and femininity; letting it go instead of repressing it. Coming to that realization was pretty awesome and I felt proud of myself. For the rest of the night as I lay on my mat, I was basically receiving a huge ego boost from either my higher self or my guides, except my ego wasn’t getting engaged at all, actually it seemed to be gone for the time being. I was hearing compliment after compliment after compliment. Each was saying how I am worthy, I am beautiful and in general people really do like me. I was receiving confirmation against every self doubt I have ever had, It’s OK that I can be quiet sometimes, that is just a part of who I am etc.… etc.… I guess this directly relates to my intention to feel self-love.

 

And that wraps up my 5 ceremonies with Mother Ayahuasca, and what an incredible journey it was.

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David Icke Explains Why It’s A Shame That George H. W. Bush Wasn’t Interrogated Before He Died

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  • The Facts:

    With the passing of George H. W. Bush, yet another bloodline family member moves on without having to account to the public for his crimes against humanity.

  • Reflect On:

    What is the value of coming to a full understanding of the dark and horrific crimes perpetrated by ruling bloodline family members like George H. W. Bush? What role do they play in our collective evolution?

In the wake of the passing of former President George H. W. Bush, and the reverence and solemnity that pervaded his state funeral, I was struck with a particularly paradoxical emotion. On one hand, I fully endorse the tradition of reliving the highest points of achievement of someone who had just passed away, and imbuing the totality of their life with grand purpose and meaning, as I myself was happy to do in writing my own father’s eulogy. On the other hand, I cannot fully escape the regret I feel that another bloodline family member who has perpetrated great and horrific crimes against humanity has moved on without having to make himself accountable to the world, and in the process reveal the means and motives of the bloodline family rule of the planet to enable humanity to fully liberate itself from it.

Certainly, when I enter into my ‘higher self’ perspective, I understand that acceptance and forgiveness of all past misdeeds is essential for healing and moving forward. But healing and moving forward also require knowing the truth and having it acknowledged, so we know exactly what it is we are forgiving. Otherwise the anger and despair are likely to simply be buried. The incongruity between the lavish honor and praise ubiquitously delivered through mainstream media and the harrowing accounts I’ve heard and read about George H. W. Bush’s cruel Satanic practices drew me to this video interview clip with David Icke, where he explains that there are a number of reasons why we need to look at and expose the practices of the man he calls ‘Father Bush’.

Father Bush High Up The Ladder

David Icke puts George H. W. Bush, who died at age 94, in a category with others high up in the ranks of the ruling bloodline families, aligned with their darkest practices, such as drinking the adrenalized blood of tortured children to lengthen their own lives:

These people always seem to live long lives, don’t they, the Kissingers, and the Father Bushes, and the David Rockefellers, and the Queen Mother in England, who lived to a hundred and two, and the Queen of England, now, is well of age, because they’re not given the same treatment, health treatment, the rest of us get, one of the bloody reasons, and also the other things that they do which is very dark, satanic, and to do with the energy of children.

More on the treatment of children later. But important to note that G. H. W. Bush’s testimony would have been invaluable because he was higher up the bloodline rank than most other high profile public servants who belong to this group, like Barack Obama or his son George W. Bush. In fact, David Wilcock recounts a story he heard from multiple sources that when Barack Obama had been sworn into office, he had a meeting with all the past presidents, and then a private 30 minute sit-down with Father Bush, who called him a ‘nigger’ and warned him that he was to follow what the ruling elite told him to do or else his wife and daughters would be brutally raped and killed.

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George H. W. Bush seemed to be a kingpin in the Deep State and publicly made great strides in advancing the New World Order agenda, actually being the one who popularized the phrase, while privately pulling important strings to advance the Deep State agenda, like helping to align the CIA with the globalist plan during his time as CIA Director and having a hand early on in the assassination of John F. Kennedy. David Icke says he would have liked to interrogate Bush not only for his political role in trying to enslave humanity as a whole, but perhaps more importantly for his dark, hidden practices as well.

Father George Bush is such a classic purveyor of this madness, this insanity that they want to impose on the world, and as presidents go, he’s a bit higher up the ladder, than say his son, or some of the others, and I would want to confront him with, not just questions about his role through the years in so many things, because coming from a bloodline family, he would have been brought, from birth, he would be developed to be in the positions that he was in, head of the CIA, and vice-president, president and all these other things that he was involved in.

But there’s another area of Father George Bush, which is something that a lot of conspiracy research doesn’t cover, but really needs to, and that is pedophilia. It’s a deep rabbit hole, but when you connect the dots, you can explain why the ratio of pedophiles to positions of power, especially in the higher levels, is fantastic compared with the ratio of pedophiles in the general population.

The Torture Of Children

In the video interview David Icke does not go too much into the evidence regarding the crimes of Bush Sr., which he says is discussed in much greater detail in his books and full lectures,  though he does point out that he has had firsthand witness testimony of what Bush Sr. has done:

This man, father George Bush, has not just been responsible for the most unspeakable, grotesque, unimaginable sexual abuse and torture of children, using various electromagnetic technologies and such that cause enormous pain for the kids who are tortured, this guy’s been responsible for the deaths of goodness knows how many children. And I’ve met some of the adults that he abused as children and survived, and they are absolutely scrambled mentally, emotionally, and physically, because of the horrors that this man put them through.

Now there’s a number of reasons, Luke, why we need to look at this, and expose this, first of all to stop the kids having this done to them, but also to let people to see into the minds and the mentality of those who are behind this global conspiracy.

Lack of Empathy

Icke goes on to discuss how the reason one would want to interrogate Bush is to come to understand why members of the elite ruling bloodline families behave the way they do. And the key point is to understand their complete lack of empathy. Icke says ‘there is something about their genetics which has deleted empathy. It’s deleted the ability to feel the consequences, for others, of your actions.’

Because our own empathy is so central to our understanding of human life, it is not surprising that many good, kind, well-adjusted people simply cannot fathom that there are people in high places putting children through excruciating torture through sexual abuse as well as ritual sacrifice. And because so many cannot fathom it, and might not be willing to even consider it, exposing it has been a slow, piecemeal process while these practices continue to happen in our world.

If we can imagine that from birth, members of these bloodline families are themselves put through ritual abuse and mind-control processes from when they are very young to completely sever their empathy for other human beings, and essentially live in a state of dissociative fear where their only satisfaction is personal power, wealth, and control over others, then it becomes possible to come to grips with what is really going on at the highest levels of power in the world.

While George H. W. Bush is no longer around to reveal the tale of his transgressions, there is still a multitude of opportunities for us to uncover not only the extent of his crimes, but the big picture they help to reveal about bloodline family rule on our planet.

The Takeaway

Difficult as it is to go through, the truth about how the ruling elite controls and manipulates humanity through its deception and dark practices is an essential step in our awakening. It’s important for us to break through our own fear and loathing and come to understand the nature of having been ruled by non-empathetic psychopaths who have been programmed to look and seem ‘normal’ on the outside. We need to stop projecting our own humanity onto them because all vestiges of humanity has been drummed out of them.

Condemning them and getting angry may very well be a stage many of us need to go through, but eventually we will need to recognize them as victims themselves and forgive them. While they might not be aware of it during their lives, they are still a part of the human family and ultimately they chose to play these dark roles in service to human evolution.

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The Top Reasons Why We Resist Change & How To Stop

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  • The Facts:

    We resist change for many reasons, but ultimately, this comes down to our core. We want to hold onto belief systems, being right, stories that protect our egos. Alternatively, we may fear the unknown, but what is that fear?

  • Reflect On:

    Why do you feel the way you do about certain changes in your life? Must you feel this way? Why do some people embrace change better than others? Is it perhaps they give less power to the stories of their mind?

Our world is full of change right now, and for good reason! Deep down we know and feel that something is a bit ‘stale,’ and we’re following that feeling with outward projections of emotions about our system, politics, what others do, our jobs – quite frankly, many of us are feeling frustrated with how things are.

But do you ever notice yourself resisting events happening in your life? We all go through many different experiences, this article is not to say we cannot make changes and choose to avoid un-favorable experiences entirely, it is simply to say, sometimes we can find ourselves being very resistant to changes that are going on in our lives, and this causes a lot of suffering and ‘stuckness.’

From positive to negative, pain to happiness, laughter to suffering, we must always remember that these are all just experiences. They are part of what allows us to grow and move towards a greater awareness within our soul and life experience.

As tough experiences happen, whether it be a breakup, a lost job, having to move to a new place, not having enough finances, finishing something that can be challenging etc, we generally have two choices. We can choose the route of remaining upset and resisting the whole process, making it very difficult to learn from as we inevitably get stuck in judging what is happening. Or we can choose to accept it for the time being as something that is in our path, a certain temporary barrier if you will, and see what we can gain from it in terms of growth. As we react to the situations, observe the thoughts and emotions that present themselves. ‘Why am I so upset about a lost job?” “Why am I so worried about change?” “What do these changes represent to me that make me feel upset?” “Why am I trying to control the experience so heavily?”

Why We Resist Change – The Core Truth

Now it might be easy to say that these are all natural feelings anyone would feel when going through these experiences because they are ‘human nature,’ but this would not be true, simply because these reactions are learned behaviours we get from how we have been taught to react to certain experiences. It is not an innate knowing from our soul for us to be upset and freak out when we lose a job for example. Some of us react and some of us don’t. These reactions are typically fueled by our own patterns, triggers, belief systems, fears, and can be further fueled by collective consciousness. This is why we resist change, plain and simple. We are protecting or running from the various aspects of ourselves listed above that keep us confined in our minds, re-playing the same reactions and experiences over and over.

Some people will suggest that some of us embrace change better than others, the simple answer to why that is is that some of us don’t give as much power to our minds stories. That’s truly all it is at its core. Not resisting change comes down to letting go of the mind’s stories about everything you do or are about to do.

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We are very much in control of how we feel during inevitable changes and challenges as we can choose to disempower the suffering that we often dive into. The truth is, we can feel peace in many of these circumstances, we simply need to remain conscious, aware and reflective as the events play out, and pay attention to what might be pulling us out of peace. We can, of course, FEEL what is first expressed, sit with it and truly understand it, but how long we sit with this is up to us, and is not the fault of the experience.

Resisting change is sometimes like trying to swim against the current. Sometimes we do not always see the perfection in what might be playing out so we try hard to keep it all in place i.e. we resist! Think about letting go of the need to control and instead let things go and flow as they need to. In most cases, we find that things are never as bad as we often assume they will be, and in the end, we feel great for having experienced it all.

How We Can Stop Resisting Change

So next time we find ourselves resisting, remember to try out these steps:

1. Pause for a moment in the situation
2. Observe your current emotions, sit with them if you must. Taking the time to slow down and understand what is going on within you will give you clarity so you aren’t simply saying “I’m mad” but instead are able to say “I’m mad because I’m feeling insecure or disempowered or disrespected etc”
3. Reflect on why these things truly bother you. As you understand what the emotions or triggers are that are coming up you will see what power you give to them and why.
4. Let go of what you are trying to control or avoid (keeping yourself out of danger of course)
5. Choose to take the situation moment by moment without judging it
6. Write down how you feel if it helps, likewise, you can talk to someone.

Helpful questions:

Why am I afraid of what’s to come? What are all the possible reasons that come up in my mind?

What do I feel is going to happen that I’m so worried about? Will it affect how people perceive me? My financial stability? Where do these stories even come from? Society? My friends? Parents?

The Takeaway

The bottom line is, when you notice yourself going back to the same frustrations, judgements, anger, blame, fear, worry, or anxiety about something, you know there is something there that’s triggering you, and it’s within you. The only way to peace and moving beyond that suffering is through processing the emotions and letting go of the belief systems, patterns of ideas in your mind that are causing such reactions.

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The Clinton’s Resort To Groupon Due To Poor Ticket Sales, Tour Tickets Now Half Price or Less

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In Brief

  • The Facts:

    The Clinton's have reverted to Groupon, selling tour tickets for half-price or less in order to get butts in seats at their events. Seems low ticket sales and empty stadiums was where their tour was headed.

  • Reflect On:

    Are people waking up to the reality of who some politicians are? Are we seeing through the mainstream media's narrative controlling enough to change our actions? Are we truly awakening? We feel it!

When Bill and Hillary Clinton decided to go on a speaking tour in what appeared to be an attempt to stay relevant, they received a great deal of backlash from people asking them to ‘go away already.’ At first, you might imagine that they will sell tickets anyway, there are enough people who voted for her and supported her and  will go see them… right?

It appears not. The pair has now turned to Groupon to flog tickets for half price or less in Canadian and US cities. A search through Groupon will reveal sales in multiple cities. Empty stadiums are not what the Clinton’s had in mind, and it seems now they want to make the most of their tour when it comes to attendance.

“A couple for the ages:” the Groupon description for the event reads. “Since first meeting at Yale Law School in the early 1970s, Bill and Hillary Clinton have built one of the most influential political dynasties in American history. He, as the first Democratic president in six decades to be elected twice, and she as a U.S. Senator, Secretary of State, and the first woman to be nominated for president by a major U.S. political party.”

Influential political dynasties indeed as they now are summoned to hearings about illegal use of private email servers and selling Uranium 1 to Russia… showing Clinton and Russian collusion, a projection they have pushed onto Trump it appears. An ethical political dynasty indeed.

Fake News

I personally found this story interesting as a few weeks ago I came across a story by a prominent fake news website NewsPunch, formerly YourNewsWire, and their headline read “Source: Bill & Hillary Clinton’s 13-City Tour Canceled Due To ‘Poor Ticket Sales.” This content has now been removed. When I saw it I thought to myself, this is great! People are truly waking up here and opting out of the Clinton’s. A couple of minutes of research revealed the story was fake. And just like I told the owners of that website many months ago, the truth is always stronger and more interesting than fiction. Journalistic integrity will not only reveal the truth the mainstream refuses to look at, but it will also help humanity awaken. Fake news stories only give more reason for censorship and confusion.

So here we are just a few weeks later and guess what? The truth is quite a story still, and makes precisely the same point. The Clinton’s are not getting the blind support from people they once did, and this is a good thing given who they are as people and what they are involved in. People are truly beginning to wake up.

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Will Hillary be running for president in 2020? You would think she wouldn’t given the results of this tour, but who knows.

The Takeaway

Two things I’d love to get across here.

We’re in a time of great awakening. And while the mainstream media might make us think we are a lot more divided than we actually are, it’s up to us to see through this stuff, not play into it and remain neutral within ourselves. The more we don’t side with the tantalizing drama of revenge, politics, right and wrong and protecting our political identities, the more we continue to see the truth clearly, project a higher state of consciousness, the more we pull fuel out of the world we want to see change.

The truth is always the way to go! And regardless of how much we love the drama of what a fake story can say, spreading it and making it viral only hurts the overall idea of seeking truth. Read articles, not headlines. If you do read the article, look for sources of claims and see how they line up. This is how we can take responsibility for what goes out there, vs waiting for Snopes or Facebook to tell us what’s right and wrong. We all know that will only lead us to more controlled narratives.

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