Apparently surviving a stroke that took half my eyesight and almost killed me would turn out to be one of the greatest blessings of my life. Before I get into how all that transpired, I need to give a little background on how it got to that point.
Growing up, my parents took the same approach to life that most people growing up in the United States could relate to. Their plan for my three younger siblings and me was simple: Go to school and get good grades so you can go to a good college. Then get a good job and make a lot of money so you can have nice things and then you’ll be happy. This was the mantra that I, like many other kids in the U.S., grew up with; the American Dream. I followed the guidelines and my years of hard work finally paid off when I landed a job working for a Fortune 500 company in Rockefeller Center, Manhattan.
Ever since I was a kid I wanted to be a professional businessman. I wanted to wear nice suits, work in an office with breathtaking views of the Manhattan skyline, dine in fancy restaurants, and date women outside of my Long Island gene pool. Each of these I had achieved more and more year after year as I slowly clawed my way up the corporate ladder. One job change, a couple moves from Long Island to Queens then the Upper West side of Manhattan, a few raises and promotions after almost a decade in the corporate finance realm, and I finally got to the point where I felt like I had “made it.”
However, when I got to that point I still wasn’t completely satisfied. In fact, I only wanted more. Then I saw an opportunity to move further up in the ranks when my director informed me that she would be leaving the company. This was the opportunity I was waiting for! I asked for and received more responsibility along with a sizeable increase to my salary. This eventually transpired into a “be careful what you wish for” situation. In the coming months I felt the responsibilities and workload piling up with no relief in sight. So began the silent war within myself that would lead to the event that shattered all that I had built for myself my entire life.
I worked longer and harder than I ever had in order to prove myself. In doing so, my life became completely imbalanced with the scale always weighted toward work. Over the next six months my stress and anxiety levels were higher than ever trying to keep up with my new workload, as the company had not yet found a suitable replacement to fill the empty role in the finance department. My mind began to turn against me and I felt as if I were stuck in the trenches of my work-related stress even when I left the office. Luckily at this point I was about to go on vacation with my girlfriend at the time to visit her parents, who had retired to a small village in Mexico. It was my first time visiting the country and I was delighted by the relaxed and care-free attitude of the locals and blown away by the beautiful beaches and nature that I immersed myself in. This was the vacation I needed! But all good things must come to an end, so on New Year’s Day 2014, we were dropped off at the airport to head back to New York City, or so we thought.
At the airline service counter, I was handed my boarding pass to return home. In that exact moment, I felt a sharp pain on my left temple like I had never experienced before in my life. I shut my eyes, grabbed my head, and let out a grunt. When I opened them, half my vision was gone and everything was blurry. Something was very wrong. I let my girlfriend know what was happening and that I was pretty sure I was having a stroke. I told her to get an ambulance immediately. I lay down where I was, drank some water, and began vomiting as my body convulsed on the floor of the airport. As the paramedics arrived, I began to feel a tingling sensation run throughout the right side of my body and I was starting to lose control of basic motor functions and consciousness. It was in this moment that for the first time in my life I thought to myself, “I might die.” I’ve been afraid before, but nothing could compare to the feeling I had on the floor of the airport on New Year’s Day 2014. The paramedics hooked me up to an IV and took me to the nearest hospital, which was luckily just down the road from the airport.
I was fortunate to survive with only having partial vision loss and no nerve damage. It was only when returning to New York would I realize the cause of my brain injury. The doctors at Cornell discovered a hole (PFO) inside my heart, which caused the blood clot in my brain. Not too longer after diagnosis, I was on the operating table in Columbia Hospital to remedy the situation. I never thought I’d be having heart surgery in my early thirties. My, how life is full of surprises!
Readjusting to city life after a stroke and heart surgery was by no means easy. At first, it was really bad. I had trouble physically getting around the crowded streets of New York City with only half my eyesight. My personality had changed drastically, as I had become more solemn. My relationships with my girlfriend, family, friends, and co-workers had all shifted to some awkward place that I was unfamiliar with, each in their own way. Invoking intimacy was not what it used to be, as my sex drive was stuck in first gear. I was nowhere near as fun and positive as I used to be when hanging out with friends and family. I had difficulty focusing so my performance at work suffered a great deal as well. My weekly therapy sessions proved to help temporarily, but my mind would constantly return to dark places. After a year of living this new life as a man I was no longer familiar with and didn’t even want to be around, the thoughts of leaving the planet began to cross my mind for the first time ever. That really scared me, so I did something I promised myself I would never do: go on medication.
I went on antidepressants and was also given Xanax that I was instructed to take only when my anxiety levels become unbearable. After just a few days, I levelled out. My depression was gone and my anxiety was non-existent. There was just one little problem: I didn’t really feel anything. Everything was just “fine.” If something good happened, my emotional response was “That’s fine.” Something bad happened? Also fine. At first I was so glad to have rid myself of crippling depression and anxiety that I was satisfied with living as a flesh-covered robot. That lasted only a couple of months. After a while I saw that I was rapidly dismantling into a highly functioning soulless drone. Was this better than living as the strung-out anxiety-ridden person I was before? Were there no other options for me to choose for continuing on with my life?
After picking up my prescription pills for the third month in a row, I hit the gym and when I got home later that evening, I realized they had slipped out of a hole in the bottom of my gym bag. I took this as a sign and decided to try going off of my meds cold-turkey. I fought through the withdrawals following the first few days then started to feel really human again. At this point in time, it was a little over a year after I survived the stroke and it became abundantly clear that I had a choice between pushing on with the usual day to day or maintaining my sanity. I chose my sanity. It was early 2015 when I officially decided I would quit my job to travel and figure things out somewhere else in the world. I immediately began downsizing my life. Most of my possessions were sold, donated, given away, or put in storage. With each item that left my possession, I felt physically and emotionally lighter, as if I were dropping off weights I had been carrying on my shoulders for years. That’s when I began the journey that would change my life forever.
In the summer of 2015 I bought an RV and my girlfriend, dog, and I decided to leave the corporate world behind and start anew in Mexico. After three months, a ten thousand mile road trip, and just over a month living together in the foreign country, it became apparent to us that our relationship of over three years was not going to work any longer. After it sunk in that everything we were planning for the future fell apart, I was completely lost. At least when I was in New York I had the comfort and stability of my job, family, friends, home country, and a language I was fluent in. Now I fell into yet another dark place, but not for long! I was determined to make the best of my situation, so I grabbed a backpack and began solo travelling for the first time in my life!
In the first month, I was just winging it and hopping on buses to the next stop on the backpacker trail of mid-western Mexico. This was a great experience where I met tons of friendly locals, expats, and travellers from all over the world. For the next phase of my travels, I decided to do a bit more planning. I was still hurting from my break-up and needed some physical, mental, and spiritual healing. So the next phase of my trip included an Ayahuasca ceremony in the Pueblo Mágico of Tepoztlán. My experience with Ayahuasca was very introspective and I kept receiving the same message over and over again: “You are on the right path.”
Next was a ten-day silent Vipassana meditation retreat in Coatepec, Veracruz, another Pueblo Mágico. This was one of the most difficult yet profoundly enlightening experiences I’ve ever gone through. Ten days of being silent and meditating for eleven hours a day really helped silence my mind and take control of my thoughts and actions.
The last stop in my second walkabout was a month-long work exchange stay at a holistic healing retreat center called The Sanctuary in Puerto Escondido, Oaxaca. Here it took just a few days at for me to realize that the Ayahuasca was right. I was on the right path! I learned new meditation techniques, was doing yoga every day, got a crash course on preparing meals for a high-raw vegan lifestyle, and shared the community house with extraordinary people from all walks of life. We worked, chanted, communed in nighttime ceremonies, shared our most intimate thoughts and feelings, and even cried together. This was exactly what I needed! Not too long after arriving, I ended up joining the team as general manager and The Sanctuary became my home for the next six months. During that time, I helped guide dozens of people through that chapter of their life’s journey, an experience I’ll never forget! It was here where I learned that truly spiritual people are those who have been through hell and have the overwhelming desire to help others out of their own versions of it.
After The Sanctuary, I was presented with the ultimate traveller moneymaking opportunity: trimming marijuana in Northern California, so I took it. I spent the next two months hunched over a table as a pot hairdresser. Once again, it was the people I was surrounded by that made the experience a memorable one. Nothing helps the time fly like sharing stories, listening to our favourite music, and laughing together around the fireplace at night when our fingers needed to rest.
With California in my rearview, I made a stop in New York to visit friends and family before heading to Puerto Rico. This was the home of a girl I fell in love with during my time in Mexico. The connection we forged during our short time together was different than any other in my entire life. It was based on a love and respect for who the other person was at their core as opposed to who we wanted them to be. Though the relationship would not continue after my visit, she without a doubt raised the bar in my ongoing search for a partner in life.
Once again I was leaving a piece of my heart behind and continued on with my travel journey! I flew into Cancún and worked my way slowly back to the beach city that helped heal my heart better than any other: Puerto Escondido. This trip was more about the journey than the destination for sure. In the Yucatan peninsula I witnessed and scaled massive ancient Mayan pyramids. While in Tulum I participated in a beautiful and emotional peyote ceremony where I took an even deeper look into the inner workings of my mind. In Palenque, I became one with nature after consuming the local magical mushrooms and bathing in the jungle’s mystical waterfalls near the ruins. As usual, sharing these experiences with travel mates amplified my experience. At this point I was a certified travel junky and never wanted it to end! Good thing I was going to nest in a beach paradise and backpacking hotspot.
Back in Puerto Escondido, I stayed in a Vivo Escondido Hostel for a month until I found a
long-term rental. You guessed it… more awesome people!
I ended up at a gorgeous newly-constructed two-story house where I would spend the next six months pursuing passions that I had been neglecting for years. I learned to surf, explored the local natural beauty, focused on healthy living, caught up on my travel blog, wrote a few articles, DJed at multiple venues, and made sure to enjoy every day as best I could. Mexico gave me the opportunity to let me live my life the way I wanted to for a while without any judgment, and for that I am forever grateful.
Just a few months ago, I took a two and a half week visa-run/vacation to Guatemala to visit my friend Luke Maguire Armstrong in San Marcos. He and I met while I was managing the Sanctuary in Puerto Escondido the year before and ever since becoming friends, I grew ever more curious of his work with a school for impoverished children in Antigua, Guatemala. I spent my first two weeks immersing myself in the raw beauty of the active volcano communities surrounding Lake Atitlán where he lived. Here I would partake in yoga, cacao ceremonies, ecstatic dance at the Yoga Forest, and even Bhakti singing at The Fungi Academy. All activities of course were shared with new and exciting traveller friends of various nationalities. For the finale of my stay, I even booked myself a DJ gig at Bar Sublime, a quick ten-minute boat ride across the lake to San Pedro.
After bidding farewell to my new friends I met on the lake, Luke and I headed to Antigua to visit the Integral Heart Foundation’s school. Though I had been helping remotely with fundraising efforts for months before visiting, actually meeting the children I was helping made it much more personal for me. It was incredibly heartwarming to actually see the children in person, knowing the adverse environment they had come from not too long ago. None of them were going to school and many were forced to rummage through garbage dumps for pennies a day due to difficult circumstances. No wonder these were the happiest school kids I had ever met in my life!
A couple days later, I said goodbye to Luke and the kids to return to Puerto Escondido. However, when I got back a shift happened within me and I slipped into another depression. I began to question what I really wanted and needed in my life. I missed my friends and family back home and my funds were starting to run low. After a month of self-reflection, I decided it was time to return to New York.
So now I have come full circle… kind of. Over the course of a little more than two years I have had more adventures and experienced more of what this incredible world has to offer than most people do their entire lives. It’s comical for me to look back at all that happened, remember living in my own personal hell for so long, and to see how far I’ve come since those times of intense despair. It was like a mental quicksand; the more I struggled, the deeper I would sink into it. Of all the lessons I’ve learned, my greatest one is probably this: My mind can be my worst enemy or greatest ally. In the end, I am the one who gets to choose which one it will be. I had to journey into the unknown and experience life firsthand to personally integrate this lesson myself. My experiences and the hundreds of connections I made along the way were what really saved my life. Without them, I don’t even want to begin to think about where I would be right now. I still have no vision on my right peripheral, but I can once again see a beautiful future for myself, something I had lost immediately following the stroke.
In over two years of travelling I have had many revelations, but none more important than
this: At the very core of my being, I am a traveller. It is one of the few things in life that makes me feel truly alive. By travelling, I saw for myself that so much of what I thought I knew about foreign cultures was wrong until I experienced them firsthand.
Meeting people from all corners of the Earth gave me a new perspective on life. I realized
that although we may have been born thousands of miles away, were raised in completely
different cultures, and in many instances didn’t speak the same native tongue, none of us were that different from each other. In fact, many of us were on our own personal quests searching for a deeper meaning in life.
Living and working in New York City for a decade had put me in contact with people from
all over the world. This, however, was completely different from my experiences travelling, as most Manhattanites had found their way and were usually more focused on their careers than soul-searching. In my personal experiences with the people I’ve encountered, those who travel are seekers, searching for something that was missing in their lives back home. For me, I was missing a greater purpose, something that my fundraising efforts with the Integral Heart Family in Guatemala fulfills.
The best part of my story called life thus far is that it is nowhere close to being complete. I still have many more chapters to write, thousands of new characters to meet, and countless adventures to experience. In over two years of travel, the greatest gifts I have received were the connections I have made with my soul tribe from all corners of the Earth. I left New York to heal myself and find a higher purpose and I feel that I have accomplished these goals. In my experience living over thirty-four years on this planet, I have found no greater healer than creating deep and meaningful connections with other souls. This lesson I promised myself to follow through with and spread to as many other people as possible. What better place to continue this journey than New York!
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Lunar Eclipse In Capricorn: Letting Go
We are having a partial Lunar Eclipse in Capricorn which will occur July 16th in the West and early on the 17th in the Eastern part of the world. It will be visible in most countries except for Greenland, the Northern parts of Scandinavia, Eastern Russia, and the majority of North America other than small portions of the furthest Southern and Eastern parts of the continent.
However, even when an eclipse is not visible in your location, it still has astrological significance. They reflect changes and can sometimes be a bit of a wildcard. The energies of a Lunar Eclipse can begin a month prior and also influence the following 3 months. Prior to this we had a Solar Eclipse in Cancer on July 2nd, which also affects this period and the following 5-6 months.
As mentioned in previous articles, this series of Eclipses in the Cancer-Capricorn axis began when it transitioned in mid-2018 and will transition out in late 2020. Therefore, some of the themes mentioned in this article (and my previous one) are actually playing out over a 2-year period with different eclipses triggering it in different ways and areas of your personal astrology chart.
However, this specific eclipse season of Summer 2019 will probably be the most impactful of this series when we consider that the Solar Eclipse was ‘Total’ and near the North Node, while this Lunar Eclipse is aligned with Pluto and Saturn at the South Node.
Lunar Eclipse In Capricorn Conjunct Pluto and Saturn Near South Node
This is a South Node Lunar Eclipse, which means that the changes and developments that it reflects lean more towards something that needs to decrease. In some cases, it can even bring significant endings or some sort of release. This ultimately will help us with what the North Node is pointing towards, which is currently in Cancer. See my previous eclipse article here to learn more about that.
Capricorn is associated with structures, ambitions, career, strategy, business, and mastery. It strives for excellence and attaining goals, as it is symbolically represented by the Mountain Goat climbing to the peak. Capricorn energy can also be cold, too caught up in social status, overly conservative, serious, controlling, can seek power over others, and be excessively focused on work and/or materialism while creating an imbalance with personal life and emotional needs.
This Eclipse is in a close conjunction to Pluto with Saturn (the ruler of Capricorn) close by at the South Node. All of this emphasizes what was written above as Pluto is associated with purging, death, & transformation.
This can reflect the need to make changes around other Pluto themes as well. This planet is associated with fears, obsessions, compulsive behavior, shadows, dark drives, manipulation, desires, deeply repressed feelings, jealousy, the underworld, and destruction. It shares some themes with Capricorn such as power and control.
This is a period in which we need to reflect on which aspects of Capricorn (and perhaps Pluto) energy we need to reduce in order to help us evolve and move forward in other ways. The events and circumstances around this time may help to push this on us.
Saturn will be near the South Node over the next 3 months, which also emphasizes what has already been written. It makes its final conjunction with it in September and early October, which is when we can experience the next strong wave of this energy after this Eclipse period. For many people there will be some concluding factor at that time in relation to what is currently playing out in our lives.
Venus At North Node While Opposing Saturn/Pluto & Trine Neptune, Mercury Retrograde Reaching its Peak
Venus is currently in Cancer at the North Node while in opposition with Saturn at the South Node. We may feel a push/pull between our relationships, love, values, money and pleasures and at odds with responsibilities, limitations, work or restrictive behavior. However, some relationship developments that occur now and over the following weeks may be highly beneficial for our evolution even if it comes with, or is faced with, complications.
Venus is also in a trine with Neptune, which can help to soften any challenges or conflicts in our relationships. This energy will be strongest on July 18th. Compassion, empathy, oneness, and harmony are themes reflected by this. For some people it can be magical, romantic, or spiritually potent. It may also stimulate creativity and inspiration.
From July 20th-21st, Venus will then be opposing Pluto, which can be a bit challenging and trigger the themes of this eclipse. In relationships (friends or lovers), it can reflect power struggles, intensity and possessiveness, but it could also trigger deep feelings and passion. Issues around hidden matters may come up as well. This can also help us make needed changes in our values or relations. Complications with financial matters can manifest more easily at this time and would be good to be cautious around compulsive spending.
Around the same time as the Venus-Pluto energy mentioned above, Mercury (which is currently retrograde) will be returning to the Sun, which is known as the ‘Inferior Conjunction’. This is the halfway point of Mercury Retrograde–a time in which we can have important insights.
It’s good to pay attention to what the universe is trying to show you at that time. It can be a period in which new ideas, thoughts, or perspectives are seeded that may develop over the coming months. Depending on what you are doing, it can also amplify the potential complications that these retrogrades are known for, which may or may not be connected to the insights you are getting. You can read more about this Mercury Retrograde here.
Things To Consider
What do you need to decrease or completely release from? What is getting in the way of emotional fulfillment? Do you need to find a new balance between different aspects of your life? Do you feel the need to let go of certain attachments, obsessions, or personal shadows? What aspects of your ambitions, duties, or structures are not serving you anymore?
These are just some examples of what to reflect on. It’s good to pay attention to how you feel during this eclipse or even during the hours and days surrounding it. It is also possible that things going on at that time can be symbolic for you. Keep in mind that this energy is part of a process that will continue to play out over the coming 2.5 months, and we may experience concluding developments leading up to early Fall. Some of these themes can even extend into later next year, but probably in different ways due to how the upcoming eclipses interact with your personal astrology chart based on your exact birth time.
The partial eclipse will begin at 8:02pm and will peak at 9:31pm (Universal Time). The Full Moon will begin to wane after 9:38pm. You can click here to see when the peak is in your time zone.
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Whether You Know It Or Not, You’re Being Prepared For Contact With Extraterrestrials
- The Facts:
In 2019 UFOs became mainstream. But this truth had already been known for many decades. Collective consciousness is ready now more than ever for contact, and you're being prepared for that.
- Reflect On:
Why is humanity so deeply interested in the UFO and ET subject. Sure, you might say there is an 'agenda' with ET disclosure, but is there more to this picture? Why has this subject become the most sought after information out there?
UFOs became mainstream in 2019, the next question is who’s manning them? The mainstream media, and the agencies that direct them, have hidden the truth about UFOs for decades and they finally changed their story on that this year. Given we had known UFOs were real for many decades prior, and that we also have known ETs are involved in this whole phenomenon, are we really going to wait many more decades for the mainstream to admit ETs are real too? Or are we going to start listening to what independent media has been saying for decades?
Humanity is preparing for contact on a mass level. This is a blunt truth but one that is undeniable when you look at how interested and hungry the masses are for content related to this subject. Some of the most watched, read, and searched content on the internet, Netflix and YouTube all relate to ETs and UFOs. Sure, some might still be in the closet about it, but that’s changing QUICK!
But why has this been a secret for so long? The truth is, the biggest secret behind why ET and UFO disclosure has been suppressed is something that isn’t discussed all that much. We typically hear about things like technology suppression, specifically energy systems. How do these crafts get here? What propulsion systems do they use? These questions lead people towards the reality that the technologies of UFO craft ultimately would disrupt our fossil fuel energy oligarchy so much that it would also collapse our economies in some ways.
Of course, this would not be such a bad thing. Why? Because when you consider that this would mean having endless and ‘free’ energy, cost for goods would drop dramatically. Not just that but, when you begin to examine the ease in creating systems based around abundance, it becomes incredible to consider what is truly possible.
An endless supply of food grown locally, everywhere! Endless energy, installed everywhere! Cars and building facilities that do not create pollution. We could essentially live in a society built such that we do not need to be enslaved by money or debt because abundance would simply become a natural happening of a society built with abundant technology, that’s harmonious, in place.
We can all see the value of such disclosures, and the reason why this would be covered but. But there is something even deeper.
The Biggest Secret
The question is, if we know these technologies exist, and they are being suppressed. And if we know that whistleblowers and people have already reverse engineered or built these things, and not all have been killed or threatened, what is the reason why these things are held back? Why do we still deny these realities en masse?
The truth is, it comes down to consciousness. We’ve been saying this since the inception of CE in 2009: solutions are there, but they won’t come until humanity is ready. What does this ACTUALLY mean to be ready? It means growing up enough as a race, that we can actually be responsible for what it is we will have access to. Not just that, but to be able to say we have ‘graduated’ in a sense, to say we are beyond our old ways.
While that sounds like a loaded few sentences, and they are in a sense, all that is really being said here is, humanity has been stuck in a cycle of experience where we continually see everything, and everyone as separate from us. We are individuals, living out our identities and lives and we are simply here to survive. We believe the limiting ideas of what our reality is and should be and thus we create that reality consciously. Our collective belief about how our world should be is directly tied to what actually happens.
But there is this feeling deep within us at this time, and I know you feel it, where we are beginning to deeply question our ways. How we treat one another, our political systems, the elite manipulation and control that exists, the existential reality of who we are and how we are truly just consciousness, all connected. These deep questions are asking us to explore who we truly are and why we are truly here. And many of us are doing so. This is beginning to create instability and change in our system because the consciousness that holds up our old world, is beginning to crack, and a new one is emerging.
Contact: It’s On Us
WE are preparing ourselves fro contact. This is not happening through someone else, it’s a collective phenomenon that is simply the next stage of humanity’s journey. As our consciousness continues to shift, through us truly doing our own questioning, changing our own patterns, habits, thoughts, and actions, we will begin to truly create the solutions necessary to create a world where we can thrive. And disclosure of technologies will come forth. It comes down to US having to do this work, not governments, not someone else coming to save us. It’s about creating an entire populace with the mentality of truly being empowered and self-responsible, as opposed to needed governance and feeling helpless.
This is why the greatest reason why ET reality is so suppressed comes down to consciousness because with an introduction to ET life, comes an entire myriad of experience we have not been exposed to.
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Is The Q Narrative Providing False Hope? Catherine Austin Fitts Weighs In
- The Facts:
It appears as though people are becoming too engaged with the Q narrative that it is blinding them from the truth of what Q truly represents.
- Reflect On:
Instead of viewing Q as right or wrong, what steps does it represent in our awakening process? Is the narrative truly creating a world where humanity thrives? Or is it perhaps only taking us a step forward, if at all?
When the Q narrative began popping up I didn’t pay much attention to it. It was only about 1 year into it that I started to do my research and really dive in. What I saw was interesting, but it didn’t necessarily get me feeling like we were suddenly all on the right track, and that everything was being taken care of – a sentiment shared by many in the community who follow Q. I’m going to get to my observations down below on a few more things.
Before we continue I want to be clear, I don’t feel all who follow Q sit back and just watch the show. In fact, I think there is a good chunk of people who actively do other things to help change themselves and their world, but I do feel for the most part – people seem to think Trump and the gang have humanity’s pure best interests at heart, and that they will save America and the world.
I don’t agree, and haven’t agreed, with this sentiment since day 1. I understand that just this article alone may bring up defensiveness and emotion in those who follow Q deeply, and all I can say to that is am I really saying anything crazy here? Or is it that some of us have become too loyal to a narrative that it’s now clouding our judgement? Have we created a new ‘political side’ that we align with in the same way Dems and Reps align with their party?
One last thing before we go on, Q is certainly part of an awakening for some folks too, further illustrating that I’m not saying it’s all bad or anything, nor am I here to discuss whether it’s true or not, but that I’m neutral on the subject and instead wish to raise some reflections about it. Also remember, Q material could literally be written by anyone with knowledge of alternative media and ‘conspiracy theories,’ nothing said is that far outside the basic knowledge of understanding these fields.
Looking At Q Metaphysically
In early April I posted on my Instagram account the following:
I think researching, piecing things together and questioning things when it comes to Q is great, I see nothing wrong with that. But I do feel that a lot of people become very complacent and just sit back ‘trusting’ that Q and team have it all taken care of.. even when things don’t quite go as planned.
I hear people in posts and videos say things like “I want Trump to be right. I want Q to be right.. I don’t want to lose my faith cause there is nowhere else to go.” etc.
This makes me wonder, are we acting from desperation? Do we really think this is the whole answer? Do those who follow this so deeply really think this is all we have to do? Just follow the posts and just sit back and watch… with POPCORN as is so often said.
The ones we have been waiting for are US.. each and every one of US.. no one is going to get this all done for us, we gotta do the work as a collective.
So sure, maybe there are things that are right going on within the Q drops, I’m not gonna take that away, but I think it’s time we start really focusing on having some deeper conversations about where we want to go, how we can empower ourselves as individuals, change as individuals and ultimately make up a collective of empowered people.. instead of just trusting that others have it taken care of.
Remember, it’s consciousness that creates this reality.. where is yours at? That’s what will decide our future more than ‘the plan.’
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This sentiment was a breath of fresh air for most as it appears many are growing a bit tired of the Q narrative only because every time something happens in the world through Trump that doesn’t seem good for humanity, the community continues to spin it so that it becomes good.. and herein lies the blind spots that are being created from choosing sides.
Catherine Austin Fitts Weighs In
When we choose sides we add a lens to our perception, that lens then clouds seeing the totality of what is playing out. I was recently having a conversation about this with my good buddy and filmmaker Michael Mazzola, which you can check out here, he proceeded to tell me about something Catherine Austin Fitts, former Commissioner at the United States Department of Housing and Urban Development, recently said that totally summed up my position as well:
Here’s what she said:
“In the Red Button Problem, everybody wants their check and they want to pretend that they are good. So it’s very important that politicians come up with this story of ‘good’. The story of “I’m good,” doesn’t have to make sense, but it has to be good enough so that I can just take my check and feel good and not have to do anything. It’s a way of being free to stay on my couch and do the things that I love instead of being bothered with the responsibility of being a citizen.”
So Q is the new story of, “I am good,” because, “I can just trust the plan, and these covert operators are going to get their thing done.” So I’ve been nice because I know some very intelligent, capable people who buy this whole thing hook, line, and sinker. It has been really frustrating for you and me. I took FASAB 56 to these Q believers, and they said, “You need to trust the plan.”
The reason why I have not gotten on full board with Q is simple: Q could be something written by ANY truther out there that knows a bit about how our world works. Even after all my research, I don’t see anything that suggests we’re seeing a highly conscious world being created, thus, there is room for further discussions.
Sure, it is helping to wake people up to some extent, but so do many other actions that happen in our world. I’m not against the Q narrative by any means, I simply feel it’s important to bring things back to us as individuals. Even is Trump and Q are in fact working together, is all you see happening truly good for humanity? That’s simply the question to keep in our minds.
If we’re going to truly make change, we must not just wait for others to do it, and we must also question the true path others are suggesting they are taking. For example, can you truly say within yourself that Trump has illustrated he and his alliance are going to create a world where you are truly free? Or is it more so that he might shake up some of the deep state, but there will still be a ton of work to do before humanity truly thrives?
I highlight the piece above because I do feel it’s obvious that Trump is shaking things up, and that’s important to note.
But what about things like pushing 5G? Why is this not questioned in deep detail?
Ultimately my take Q has been the same since pretty well the beginning. We are not necessarily seeing a human alliance take over the Deep State. We are seeing a deep state alliance take over the Deep State. Meaning, one faction of the DS has split and is going against another. One has a slightly less dystopian view for humanity. I summed this up in a video here.
Things are happening in stages, steps forward are sometimes slow and bit by bit. But it appears as though some of those who follow Q and who align with Trump too heavily, in a religious like sense, are developing blind spots and putting too much faith in having these people save the world.. where might that lead if Trump doesn’t create that world? Does he even resonate as someone that will?
I’m inspired to help us out of the one side vs another narrative and simply see things for what they are so we can keep fluidly evolving vs. jumping from one box to the next.
I urge you to check out my deeper explanation of Trump and Q through the 5G unfoldment in this video analysis, it truly helps to lay a deeper framework and understanding of what is taking place here.
Bottom line is, this is all a step into further questioning and beginning to break down the old world, but by no means is this the full picture and we must remember that.
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